8

      "In the beginning was silence"  C.S. Thomas

 

 

Once the o was/circled

The dot expanded to the capacious circle

Which Einstein’s retinas encircle

 

Frozen thought, I will skate a figure eight

Not to confuse, but return, the eight

Doubling, deepening to infinity, slender expansing eight

 

 

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ALL THE WORDS ALL THE TIME

 

 

When the pleasure of the poem

Fails, what replaces love?

A child's fingers slide the wrong key

Into music, the watch is on strike.

 

Like bare feet, like scuffing along

A path too little walked, a lost

Road. Truth may bowl or be a bowl

Or be in a bowl. Who’s drinking?

 

It’s Jew McGinnity, the sweet Kentuck

With a sense of humor that leaves

Him all to himself while the town

Howls with suffering. If only he’d write

 

It up. Get a job usin the words he’d heard

Before, clean out the coop like the rest

Of the roosters. Cain’t even call him Jew

Anymore, so sensitive we’ve become. He’s

 

Lost in his integrity, untranslateable.

Give him a hand, he’s ready or not. True

To his heritage, climbing the Wailin Wall

Comfort will come the last time hie eyes open

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

APPROACHING 47, FATHER SUICIDE AT 2, MOTHER STILL IN PLACE

 

 

Nothing

Changes

 

Life is a breath

At a time

 

I useta

But now

Never

 

All your support

Has kept

Me afloat over

 

The drowning man

Says, hello

 

Tomorrow the breakage

Will be evaluated

 

By the Adjudicators

How does

Everyone get paid

 

For doing what

They do

Except me

 

I was a sun blazing trails

In Old Kentucky

Now as a simple soul

 

I beg Budhha

To replace my

Windshields

 

What is the poet

On top

Of? Nothing

 

I send you love, Mom

What we know

We should tell

 

Everyone

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

BAR MITZVAH SONNET

      —for Ezra Teitelbaum

        April 8, 1995

 

 

One morning wake up stand

Before Family, Friends, Total

Strangers words fly out mouth

Lava at the volcano party Hebrew

Learned to say "Hello" word

"World" shoulda stood in bed

Body simply voice-carrier no-

Body hears my feet which say

 

Going down South  Going down South

Yesterday's boy no more to see

Not to worry, Mother, Father, Brother

I will find him and return him

Sudan Milan Japan Pacman Yucatan

Speaking words that rhyme with "Man"

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

CONDOLENCES

      --for Sonia Lopez

 

 

Death does not enter aimlessly,

But appears to, settling down

In the corner, a forgotten relative.

You don’t even notice, so many tiny

Angels hover over your father’s

Face. Everything is a dream anyway.

 

You need to hire a mover, to shove

You back into your body. The day

You ran through the surf the first time,

He looked so proud and scared,

He would always be there.  Death

Mutters something, politely departs,

 

Claiming with a ticket. You sit forever

By the now empty bed. Nothing musses.

Life musses.  The pillows and sheets are

Waves now and you are always running,

It is Death who leaves.  Life stays.  Fear

Becomes Love, says your father. Always.

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

COW

 

 

Papa Lunacy, the Giving Over of Familiarity to rouse a sense of sweet

well-being, to be kaplowed with,

 

That's the first step, teetering, a jetski on the Evenrude outboard tip

 

Yes, it was Clue, for no good season

 

Fighting the Happily Ever After Crew with a hair curling iron, zipstered

Bar -b-Qed cattle brands tattooed on her tender sweaty lip, or his

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

DEAR HERSCH!

 

 

It was grandiose it was the most

It was absomotelymentous

On the tip of the top where the crocked cricket hopped

The plain fear dropped

I stopped

Shut everthing up in everywhere

Kicked over the house to set the cleared

Breath to bringing a breathing intuition

Into remission so the mission I woulda accomplished it

Except for the bozo who wrinkled it

Caught the shirt tail on the third rail

While the fifth column ate the sixth sense

It was a riot! You gotta try it

And see what the mixed up mix aughta be

Once set free

The way it sent me

The way it aughta be

The way in the way way outta the way

Where there ain’t no way left

Cept the way out way out

So far it’s so far

Too far to be sure

Too pure to be your indefatigueable response

Yours truly,

 

Eternal Dissonance

 

PS in prose, your LongShot Resonse which I saw in orig issue meant everything to a guy who likes to give everything for great god Poesy!

 

Bless you, Hersch, and all yr projectiles: poems, bits o’spit, human consciousness mobiles, etc.

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

DEFY DEFINE

 

 

Two words yearn to tell a story

Sit up late hearts on plate dust in sky

Rust from cry

 

The story is their child

The child grows can’t take your eyes off

Plays, friends, pets, fights, offshoot stories

 

Read me a story, Daddy

The one about the goddesses and gods

The one about the dragon

 

Two words, defy and define,

Sitting on a bench waiting

For a bus to take them out of here

Riling deisel smoke to the story

Personal as pen, solid as voice

Engaging in orbit around this child,

Only now it’s children, each

With a story. And a story each.

 

To defy the tale you must define it

To define possibility defies possibility

An abstract key, the bus circles back

A harmony, the dragon’s tiny, who

Needs it. Words looking out window

Taste and touch, lapidary reposes,

A racoon’s moon. Will you define

Them, within reason? Without

Reason -- or defy them.

 

The solitary vulture makes good story.

Read the flight above the dead tree.

The bus slows, hedlights frozen.

I’ll be there at a quarter till three

Bring more words -- we’ll party!

All grown up now, are ye?

Your mother and I are fine

Defy define.

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

"EARSHAVE"

 

 

If you can hear the poem

In the subway

Your earshave been retooled adequately

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

EXISTENCE

 

 

To be or not to be

What's the difference

Not much, according to our survey

Conducted totally by us, the Living

Without benefit of consulting the Dead

 

Whether 'tis realer to yawn and surf the channels

Or walk outside and get bumped off

Sure there's a difference between buying all the air you'll need for an average lifespan at birth

And lying in a pine box with your arms crossed and your eyes closed as if to say Duh

While, when you were alive

You actually said Duh

 

No matter

The Baby Boomers will eventually die out

Spelling will become a quaint decoration

There will be arbiters at poetry readings to explain things

Children to be sold to highest bidders

And this hotbed of a planet will crack and sprout some new beast

 

You think I'm ding I wish I were

Because the snakes in my head sing poetent hammers

A gold swell, a smack between a fist and a kiss

 

A terrific idea is forgotten

And what you remember isn't worth remembering

I sound whiny, or, if I'm lucky, desperate

What are we, playing charades? 1st syllable yes

2nd syllable turd 3rd syllable eye

All my troubles seemed so far awhy

What a brackish brew is blood

 

I used to but I never was

Moo cows wandering the cemetery

They are sacred creatures, the milk sack metaphors

As a matter of math, everything I see is a metaphor

You, watching me look at metaphor, what am I metaphor for?

 

Though I cannot see you. I know you watch

And I may be raving paranoiac trying to palm myself off as agoraphobic

Maybe fear of phobias

But when was the last time you put me in one of your poems?

????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

 

 

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FOR JORGE BRANDON

      --“El Coco Que Habla,” 1902-1995

 

 

Before the Beginning of Time

When you could rhyme Sublime with Sublime

Because Because was a gag

In the mouth, a laughing flag

In the Land where the Coconuts Talked

Where to move was to dance was to walk

Where sing would answer seek

There Jorge stayed up all week

To catalog the Beginning of the Scene

That was the Neverending Dream

"Nevermore!" he cackled to Poe

“Wheelbarrows!” to Williams he'd flow

And the Sun's horizon was rising and falling

In oceanic frenzy and crawling

Sandy beaches were deserts becoming

Birds of No Feather were buzzily humming

He ennumerated the words

The syllables became birds

Off he flew to the Promised Land

Borincua grew a palm in his hand

His vision was his voice

Your ears had to rejoice

He'd wickedly splinter

      the meaning of center

Into atoms of busted dust

      and rust and trust

Padre Jorge the Master of Sound

The creation of sidewalks the streets surround

The conductor of trains to reality's brains

The wheelchair of dictionary aeroplanes

This quivering quaver

      Piraguero's flavor....

 

A friend of mines interviewed

Stopped late at Jorge's stoop

The world was Jorge's stoop

Life was Jorge's loop

He circled the block many times

His cries would always rhyme

The patron Saint of the Barrio

The Oldest New Age Jibaro

We cry now on your bier

We thought you would always be here

Your poems are spread over Loisaida

Miky Bimbo beside beside

The poems don't stop Jorge

You did not die yesterday

Roberto Clemente hits home runs

Jorge Brandon the World's Greatest Poem

Wherever I go you have been

I see you there always again

 

 

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THE HAS-BEEN POET

      for Gaston Neal

 

 

The has been poet is back

The over-the-hill poet suddenly is not only not over it

But king of it queen of it prince and princess kiss the frog

Royalty of it be damned of it shouting lungsful from far atop

Mount Poem where you never been hell you never seen

It so shrouded in the cloudy foggy do-do

Of  your own shortsighted need contacts to look in the mirror

Steam face clearing and what do you finally see see see

Samo samo samo samo

That’s you-o,

Somewhere in there-o

Holding on to the scraps of your control panel

Attached to goddamn

Ain’t attached whahappen whahappen

 

While the usta be  poet, why

The usta be poet never went away

And all your workshops and accreditation programs

All your grants and fundraising gala soirees wait till it’s served

Before you touch it goddamn don’t drink it all in the first half-hour

All the be home in time to let the sitter go home

But where is home?

Now you see it’s not that I’m anti-family

I am pro-family

I just think you better redefine what constitutes your own goddamn family

Cause when you say whatever crossed the transom goes before the committee

I say  guess who’s coming to dinner? Why, it’s the has-been poet

And guess what? he’s staying over for breakfast too

And guess what else she’ s making you your lunch as well because

Guess what, she’s a transgender transgenerational mixed-race motherfucker of a has-been poet

And I’m back cause guess what

I never went away

Where you been, fool?

 

 

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HORVACI UND HALTERTOP @ DIXON 4/15/95

 

 

   PRESET: GENERAL LIGHTS + 1/2 UPON AUDIENCE.

 

1. Horvaci enters happily alone

   HalterTop screaming misery backstage

 

2. Q: after HT peaks, HV: "My shoe is untied"

   HT enters w/ shoecrash

 

3. HV ties shoe, trades shoecrash for Dots

   HV adjusts props etc

 

4. Theatrical Transition of Sound & Lights

   "Sound! Lights!" [Repeat 3X,] Bathe in SLQ1

   SLQ1: TAPE 1 AND LIGHTS GO CRAZY, END WITH NO CHANGE,
   (SAME AS BEGINNING). 10-15 SECONDS.

 

5. Healthy Pause ala "Fritata"

   HV: "Script" hands notebook to HT

   HV/HT El Classico

 

6. "Some little thing"

  

7. HT gets in place, in front of mic

   SLQ2: LIGHTS (SPECIAL ON MIC) + TAPE 2

   "Feelings"

 

8. SLQ3: WHEN TAPE ENDS, BO, IMMEDIATE RETURN TO PRESET MINUS HOUSE

   Edwin's poem (Bob off)

   Bob's poem (Edwin off)

 

9. Edwin reenters w/ "Stepping in...."

 

10. SLQ4: WHEN BOB HITS FLOOR, CROSSFADE TO SPECIAL. BEGIN AGONIZINGLY SLOW FADE TO BLACK ON "TOGETHER"* :

 

Fly fly fly fly fly away

Is that the way

That is the way

To begin the end

To end the begin

And how about the beguine

Yup, now hat you mention it, the beguine, too, will begin

As the end ends

The way it begins

*[Together] Together

Again

Again

[Together] The End

[Freeze]

We can go now

[Between grit teeth, sotto voce] No! Not yet you fool!

[Leaves]

For my next poem, I'd like to tail off in a comet's trail

BLACKOUT WHEN ONSTAGE TAPE (CONTROLLED BY EDWIN) ENDS

 

 

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IN SOUTHWEST

      for Lynne Beyer

 

 

Your legs catalogued miles

And the flutter of eyes

Like where to go, dear Friend

A smile you would always tweak

When no one (especially you)

Was watching. God, poems, love,

Definitely everything. Fears

Raced to the close, smashed

Definitely everything. Miles

To go we'd keep saying, even

Now I say it as you stop.

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

JUSTIN CHIN

      "All directions simultaneously"

 

 

I remember you

Carving the foreshadowing wind

Scratching back at Nature

Where it itches

Where it lives

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

LATE NITE DANCE MIX @ THE BLUE NOTE

      (w/ DJ Attica Blue aka Charlie)

 

 

Blue is the color of my true love’s skin

And all the life that glistens there mirrors my death

You cain’t stand still you fracture gesture nothing

Frantic in the panic sweat block tastes strain like a hip

Hop thrust into the body rejoining beat of tender swelling

Creaking birth in a smoky whisper of abrupt calm settling

A bird in flight frozen there now dive to floor rolls hands

Her hands braceleted orchestrated beringed bejeweled

Deep tattoos of movement xrayed exploded into beings

Physical sandwich physical tasting physical hair found slide

Slide smelling touch a circling the fire is cold

Everybody to everybody’s body makes an orb from it

Corpus loses weight and floats sheer sensuous blend

Till beat blasts explode the break down’s up again

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

THE LOST NOTEBOOK

 

 

Went down to Brighton

Thought I'd do a little writin'

But the waves themselves was just too excitin'

So I grabbed tight to my beer

Jumped off the pier

& disappeared...

 

Stop!

      Hold it!

            The End!

 

Never again shall such clapdoodle arise

From the boiling petrie dish of blank pages

A preprimal scream floods the heavens

 

I LOST MY NOTEBOOK YESTERDAY!

      with all my poems in there

                  and an essay about How To Survive as A Poet

 

Exercises, like the local color ditty above

(Which, thank God, is now lost forever)

 

Aiee. (Trans: "It is over.")

      I lost it

            My lovely Berlin poems

      hard-eyed and stern

      with a denseness to the darkness

      crawling over the page like

 

                        Well, like glue of sunset, fires

                        Burning out at Techeles

 

                                          Like a pill, fr chrissake

I need a pill to calm down Help!

Guy who lost notebook here

Mouth agape, sounds emerge, news is

I lost it I lost it

 

            Notebook Notebook

            It's 8 1/2" by 11"

            W/ black cover and

            an embossed quill

            and ink bottle on

            the cover hand me

 

The megaphone, please!

      And let me dangle madly from the bungee

Screaming with every rubbery

      Bounce and rebounce

I lost my notebook in Brighton

      Where it is is not lost

But here, feet tied, lips blistered

      Swole up eyelids and punky cheeks

The view (I lost my glasses that last dive)

      Blurred at end of bungee of sorrow

And, did I mention I lost my notebook

      I must run screaming to the International Operator

To call home to anounce my loss, my grief

      Aiee. Now,

My Telephobe Calling Card has been cancelled!

      Someone's intelligence and criminal bent lifted

My Secret PIN and with criminal intent made calls

      to Gambia, Algeria, Australia and 24 other international sites

      Leaving me stranded in Great Britain with the Brighton Blues again

Yes, it's raining

No, I'm not shitting you

      My Lost Notebook phone calls stick inside like an inner layer of phlegm.

Dissociating me from what used to be Reality

 

I am He

Of Lost Notebook

Standing in phone booth

Attempting International Calls via coinage

A pocketful of quid and I still get the damn answering machine

Screaming into the digital tape,

BOOK NOTE LOST I!      CAR A ON IT LEFT!

AM I JERK STUPID A WHAT!

 

I've become dyslexia incarnate

I've lost my poem about screwing on top of the roof (a       fantasy, darling)

Lost 2 page essay on How I Made a Million Writing Poetry

      The only poem I remember in toto is one called:

 

10 Things I Do Every Day

      1. Suicide

 

YES -- at last -- the Answer

As it says in the Good Book,

When You die and go to Heaven

There shall Ye be rojoined with

All Lost Notebooks, and ye shall

Set about revising the sonnet re:

Friendship, Bicycling, and

Mellowing Ex-Communists

 

                        NO! The Good Book

Saith not that! --

(For, indeed, is not

THE LOST NOTEBOOK

in actuality The Good Book itself!?

 

Idea Number 1: Sell

Publication rights to The

Lost Notebook by Bob Holman, retire on advance, never write another word

      Idea Number 1 1/2: Same as Number 1, but kill yourself

      Idea Number I've lost track on my way to the second idea because The Lost Notebook Obsesion has taken over all ability to count

 

Another idea (and then la pistola en la boca) is

To detail narrative, complete with inherent unconscious clues.

          I was being interviewed on the Pier at Brighton with Samantha Coerbell. Joanne Goode, Sussex BBC, had the broadcast system in her car trunk, and invited me to sit in said car to await interview moment. I set the aforementioned Notebook on the roof of her car. It's her fault. The name is Joanne Goode. She's driven off with L10,000 worth of pure poem on top of her little Renault and I am suing BBC.

 

                        NoNoNoNo,

                        I must image NOTEBOOK

                        into my possession

                        THIS book into which I pour

                        feelings of loss for That book

                        becomes That book

What crap.

This is not that goddamn book!

 

Image here is physicalization of Deconstructivist Theory

 

Where my Notebook

Flies from Joanne Goode's Renault

On the motorway

And is run over by

Station wagon full of baying dauchshunds

A raving lunitic unreconstructed Communist stockbroker

On a Harley

A lorry full of live export animals

Whose big eyes fill with tears

Maggie Thatcher on deisel broomstick

Nuyorican Poets Cafe Live fan club busses

Until

 

The Notebook

Line by line

Shreds and ribbons

A shower of Beauty Meaning

A downy blitz of Truth seedlings

A fine rain of poetry

 

Gently gently drift onto the windsheild

      of motorists all over Britain

With an occasional rare verse straying to Gambia, Australia,
      and Tampa, Florida

Where my mother picks up a line, and says to her new

      husband, Howard,

"It's from Robert, but I never could read his handwriting"

 

Calm now, and satisfied

Of grief

I conclude with a plea

 

God -- if there is a God,

      And even if there's not --

 

SEND MY NOTEBOOK BACK TO ME!

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

LULLABITE

 

 

I see you reflected in the mirror ball

Just as it starts to fall

Guilty is what I think it’s called

Not that it matters at all

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

ON LOVE

 

 

They were on love

No problem

They were all over it

A jet stream's piece of paper

Even a paper clip to hold it all on with

Would their bodies ever quit? Love,

A Handyman's Special,

A Handywoman's Special

They were equivalent when it came

To sex, burrowing like rabid worms

Seeping like Superman through lead

 

Surely goodness and mercy will follow

All the days of their life at least

 

We can turn the page

The writer has become a tour guide

For the reader to look at the Lovers

Trading male and female, inventing a new gender

Call it "may fail"   Pretty little may fail

Why do we cluck?  On their piece of paper

In the jetstream with everything

Clipped on -- Love is ever so fragile,

Love is ever so strong.  It's

Amazing we wake up with our selves intact

Let alone recognize the face of the Other, who,

By breath alone impregnates, births

And eats freedom up, burning

The sun, shattering the planets,

May fail in the freezing emptiness.

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

OUT (THE WINDOW)

 

 

I saw so many things

I wanted all of it mine

I busted the glass

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

OVER

 

 

She thought she'd solved

Him like a Problem

A book, an inscription, like a wisp

Of smoke casually crossing

The moon. He took the book, its wrapper

Falling off like a robe covering

The sea. Enchantment's double, she

could take it and disenchant, leave

Him as he stumbled back

Into his childhood. The way her breasts

Pushed out at him, forcing him back

Step by locked step, while his desire

Locked into her, a beam electric blue shower.

 

And when she was gone she was gone

She was gone all over, rocks and refrigerators

A cellist forever replacing string after string

In the jet hangar, down the supermarket aisles

In the terror of night she was so gone

A blanket shredded and wrapped, a mummy

Bound to itself with heat and a heart

That was the loudest thing, the alarm

Was set off she was gone the air tactile

He was a burn victim and sound was touch

 

What was it that made him finally

He was coming to, his senses were coordinating

His nose back on his face, good skin all over,

Tongue lushly filling the center of his mouth

A good drubbing, a processed word cranked

Over to the dry cleaners for some advice

And clean clothes. It wasn't till he forgot

The book that he remembered and how he got

Her back was he pressed his lips to her inscripting

The moon again, the sea slowing in mid-wave

Whatever it was she was there

Until he started to actually read it

Something she never thought to actually read it

And as he read she materialized, a poem is meaning

Something, meaning immediate, a plot she had thought

She'd already taught. She'd forgot. She gave it all away

Too many too often this time no backsies

 

Dressed up for dinner, ready to sweet

The phone begins to ring its passion dance

The story unspools, the phone cord wraps

Her arm a bracelet, her necklace, mask

A rug to roll around in. They were words

But they were set free. They invented a memory

So fulfilling her birth records evaporated,

Hate would have but didn't and love

To her this game was to stay but fractured

Like money you save and should have spent

It's like you give it away but you can't

You have to keep a copy of your love

On the disc at the printer to bind

O, sweet going to love him now

Love her now that they never met

A book at the library, nobody will

Ever check it out, music and a coat of arms

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

PILAR

 

 

Fight each inch or flight -- heavy

Road clouds below, Mazda

Overheating like teenage passion

The juju of air beats step

By step, moving useless steel

Now returning, elemental, final

Push, top level, leaping in

First descent to Taos, 1995

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

POEM FOR MY DAUGHTERS IN THE NEW YEAR

 

 

Diving straight down at our red chimney

The green is powering up at me

 

Electric lines are giving off blue sparks

The clouds are layers of white and pink sharks

 

I see the City like Oz over my wing

What can I give you now, anything?

 

Sophie, you are twelve and making up a world brashly

Daisy, you are nine and dreaming in an envelope cozily

 

I have a poem for each of you, with love and your name

Because to me they mean the same

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

RESISTOR

      (for Evelyn McDonald)

 

 

How hard it is to breathe

In a guerrilla mask with a guitar

Surgically grafted onto wrist stump

 

Learn to control your passions

Is the songlike thing you emit

(Words now come out as text

 

Streaming from what was once a tongue)

Tape vomit spooling round -- hello?

Someone “says” “something” sounds like

 

Hello? You are talking to yourself too bad

You cannot translate how confusing condition

Smash amps, eat the feedback. Gotta gotta

 

Instant evolution is screaming from genitals

This is politics, Sweetheart, revote and postal.

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

SAESNEG O CYMRAEG?

      "It is the spectator, and not life,

         that art really mirrors."

                        --Wilde

 

 

Identity is a mask foisted upon Pure (unsuspecting) Individuals by Fascist Power Mongers

Actually, in our ideal state, we’re all a-quivery slugs of a jelly-like density

Awaiting a single electrical impulse

To do something like eat

Or figure out why or something, breathe

It’s great to be in Swansea

Now I’m a Welsh poet

If I tell you where I’m from

You’ve never heard of it

Like you, I’m from Mum and Da, yes, and where they’re from etc.

A common DNA pool only 270,000 years ago,**

When our Common Ancestors,

All the Major Arcana of the tarot deck,

This Commune-Tribe-One-Happy-Family,

Sat down and said --

We are tired of sitting down on dirt!

Let’s invent the sofa!

No no replied another (the Fool?)

How about newspapers? You can sit

On the newspapers -- that’s recycling!

Thus begat civilization (someone else said

If it’s a sofa, let’s have it fold out

To become a bed etc.)

The only question left is

Who made up the language

And what language was it,

English or Welsh?

Saesneg o Cymraeng?

 

 

*today’s  NY Times  headline !

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

SHIT DU CHIEN

 

 

In my ear you wanna leave

Whole cakes that must be decompressed

You suggest

(Or, you jest?)

Levels of Understanding as if you were somewhere

And I am not here with you because I do not

Blue is blue I would say to apple-bearing Snake

Because of poetry

You want huh? You(?) Want (?)

Me to understand there are levels of understanding I say

Excuse me I clear my throat say

I am nervous say you listen me say I talk now say Please Shuttup!

I (?) want (?) to understand

Maybe if you tell a little story

It will not break copyright and it is a right

Copy, right

Of what yr momma, what what

What a coin

What a coincidence that we both have mothers

Let’s start right there

Where we started starting now

 

 

_________________________________________________

 

 

SOME LITTLE THING

      (for Edwin Torres)

 

 

    Piano On Street

 

Parked illegally

Everyone playing rainy

Night in New York City

10009

 

Some Little Thing Jan 8

 

Something

Some little thing

Representing CHANGE

In effect representing CHANGE

Being CHANGE -- we don't say

 

We don't know until

Someone says

You're changing

I like what you're doing

Do me

 

 

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SONNENUNTERGANG UBER MUNCHEN

 

 

Sorry -- I feel need of a poem coming on

I must write. May I rest here

In this puddle of purple gold?

The sun sets twice over Munich tonight

Once on the old Germany

And once on the East, the Turks, The African Germans, the DeutschRicans

Separate suns to dance into fire

The computers still hum, with no one to hear

Trust me, the’ll keep autofaxing diligently

Linking u and down, file to fragment

Machines of Grace, they pave over prejudice

And await your poems

All they ever wanted was a chance to connect

To the Future Forever

Enveloping madness like a harp

In the lullabye of night

 

 

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TAOS WIND

 

 

Winds wind through Taos are history

Refresh, make it up, kick back

Put the air in a bottle of air in a container

And just toss the thing into a storage space

 

Not from sphere

Not from anywhere

From here for here

Winds born here make this place

Of this place where wind is a fur

Softer touch than vision

 

 

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THIS READING POSSIBLE

 

Like to thank all those who made this reading

Possible! There’s Rich from the bookstore who

Lugged the damn things in a box up the hill &

If you don’t lend a hand or a buck it’s gonna

Be back down the same  damn hill. Read me?

 

 

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TO "FATHER"

 

 

Bring me the winner! My one claw

Entices the air, your eye cast inward

Burping a blessing. Yes, running clear in

The cold gray coalfield, a river of meat --

The bitter spit of Pennsylvania. What all

Was lost in the Great Depression? Every

Thing. Except for hardscrabble cruelty of sur

Vival, a competitive warp that trashes ci

Vilization. It's Chaos out here! In there,

My father, "the man who raised me," finds

More shade for the caladia. Leaving you

Always feels something unsaid -- no love,

No matter. Walk into the fridge. A wave of tin.

 

 

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TODD COLBY

 

 

walk into the room

more like detonate

what is walk

what is room

 

at least we are into into

 

so deep

so far

so watch

so out

 

 

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TRAIN THROUGH WALES

      Sam Coerbell, Reg Gaines, Will Perdomo, Bob Holman

 

 

Gazing as the cows graze

I bite haphazardly into this Big Mac

Am I biting the cow’s ass?

But the bovine bites back

 

 

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TURNING 50 AT THE CIRCUS

      (for Anne MacNaughton)

 

 

Most Consecutive Somersaults at a Single Poetry Reading, to Anne McNaughton

For her ability to keep deep desert toes

While all about her poets, tacos

      fax machines, land developers, pueblos,

            text, late night assignations,

                  early morning beauty blurbs, silence

                        and that dove over there in the corner

Orbit and crease the Heavens with their demands

 

We come not to ask how you do it

We don’t want to know

We come to praise the Being that allows it

 

Sky cracks open 4 am

Face of Anne

Beguiling smiles

 

OK you motherfuckers time to sleep!

 

I’m the one who stills the beast

I’m the one who sleeps the least

 

So slide back into your dream furrow

And write the poems for tomorrow

 

 

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"The Complete "United States of Poetry"

  (American Sign Language Version)

 in a Minute and a Half"

by

Peter Cook translated by Bob Holman

 

 

Ahem

 

Translate every poem in the series into ASL?

and

I get a minute and a half to do it!

Better start by spelling it out for you Hearies

"Welcome to the United States of Poetry!"

 

In a poem the words don't stand still

The "y" of poetry

flies into meaning

collides with the ear of

the huddled masses yearning to hear

got a Brand New Dictionary

and a Flame of Truth to read it by....

 

but the poem takes flight outta sight

a winged "Y"

 

first stop: Down South

polin' down Word River

don't need to say it

let the band play it

watch the music

 

the poet makes a microphone out of air

and just as the massive croon is ready to erupt

tiny "y" of poetry flies out

 

the poem is inside the music, see

and once set free

rides the wild ride

in perpetuity

rides it like a buckin bronc

a jeep honk

in a honky tonk

let those cowboy poets

take us out way out West

those are poem bullets

strapped to my vest

a shot in the air

is a caption for [**!@#!##!!*&%!]

(Well, I swear

Whadaya do when you hit Vegas

Let the slot machine windows spin

Spinnish to finish the poem

That's the jackpot!

 

Riding the wave of a poem all the way to the Pacific

Not even the ocean can stop us!

Surfing the streams of consciousness

My surfboard head in the dryer at the laundromat

Can this be Hollywood?

Poetry's "Y" finds a home in the HOLLYWOOD sign

I was in Hollywood, where all the poems go

To be turned into boxoffice smash hits

Poets sure get treated great out here

Make-up is the same as editing

The crowd roars and the cameras roll

As I smoosh a haiku into the cement:

 

New definition

For a concrete poem writ

Ten in flashbulb light

 

Hightail it out, fast as a trout,

The poem flies up the coast

The arc of Truth is the Bridge to Beauty

Get the City to hold still long enough

To have a cuppa poetry

Where stimuli rise from the wisps

Weave a beret goatee

Explode into brainstorms

Drenching the City with poetry

 

The poem becomes the thing itself!

You know, writing could be allegorized as

Scaling the mountain of Pure Understanding

 

And the bird I see

Is the bird I be

Flying free

The trout below mimics my flight

I want to be

The diving point

Where Meaning claws into me

Clinging to understanding all you can say is

 

[WOW!]

 

Sight touches -- is that sound I see?

Wild wolf howls transcend harmonies

Poem travels back in time

Indian appears -- original rhyme

Vision snares a hurricane of antlers

The bow is the poem, the arrow is the poem

The elk is the poem

And their union creates the earth

 

And who is this,

Harvesting his crop of poetry

Can you dig it

The poet hisself

And my personal Muse,

Er, I mean "moo-se"

My cow

Blow those horns of Poetry, Mooster

 

Your "little letter y" bird

Motors the ink link, and peanut butters

Face to life in the Capital of US of Poetry,

Washington, DC, Lincoln's Memorial,

Note Abe's fingers sign his initials, "AL"

A deaf artist sculpted him!

Crash land on Lincoln's mole

Speechless poetry speaks with Lincoln's voice...

(Deaf sculptor put an "A" and "L" on his fingers)

Time to wave the wave.

Poetry flies into its shadow

The last image is the sound of poetry's shadow

As everything's shadow disappears back into your TV

May I direct you please

Back to your journey

Through "The United States of Poetry"

 

 

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VIRUS

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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WEBSTERS NETZINE MANIFESTOTATION PO!!

 

 

I proclaim no I!

Language itself weaves the Web, proclaim exclam Blam

Some thing new thing this is righting

The sinking world, what drain are we spinning

Alice’s rabbit hole direct to Plato’s cave

I am a mighty orange buffalo

“This screen!” everybody screams, “is the cavewall!”

 

Hey hey hey

Text text text

It is your text

To alter on the altar of whatever you tink

Tinker the Thinker

To add a single note is to change the entire symphony

Now, it is your symphony

Too much passivity makes the Doodles bag empty

Honey, the peach salsa has green on it

The catfood from the snaptop can has green on it

The silken tofu has green on it

The Compaq Presario you wanted, it is covered

With moss and seaweed, creepy Kudzu

Mold mold mold

My olde My olde My olde

Why hast thou repetified amplified blown all out

Until the words themselves begin dancing

A social circle of dancing to eat the fears of the cannot communicate

‘Deeper into the It of It

I will sit’

 

Ahem -- Readers, Write!

Writers, Read!

 

The gorgeous thing, the fantastic rainbow of tears

The magnificent library

The archbishop of rock

The quick response

The ultimate repose

The question of answers

The who should be in the band that kind of day

When the brutal winds of technology blotted all with green moss...

(WE have been there backaways boss --

--ah, but this is the buildup to ze Grande Finale,

You crazy youth!)

 

Where the jangling ganglia play and the fly rumors roam

Where hirstory is something you make up as you make up

 

What is important to remember is respect

Respect respect

If we do not respect respect what will we respect

Loyalty?

 

That is a good rockin answer to a wake me quick query

I am separating my soul to get it interviewed by the Search Committee

 

Will you be there

To analyze the DNA of my hair

With your new machine made of glottal imprecations,

Nothing but thought, words, and a buzz bomb?

 

 

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WHERE THERE’S AN ILL

      for Bill Adler, 12/18/95

 

 

Music is cool like my Dad

Can’t mask beauty, sings Ruthie

To Tina on a wintry dayof pos-

Sibility.  There’s no problem with

Having a birthday today when you

 

Are born every day anyway.

That’s the story!  And now, for the rumors

Behind the news: when IT’S the dead

Of night and the blue tongue rings

It must be your brother, the schizy

Suicidal poet fuck-up one, who wants

To remind you it’s all your fault.

Ho hum. It was just a dream,. I mean

A scheme hatched out the rooster egg.

One day, and once upon a time, like always

Like right now -- what I say opens everywhere,

Moses’ last breath in a bottle. Amazed to see

The writer grow a typewriter out the window

 

In a blinding snowstorm! Aiee, it’s all words!

The poets on their crazed course look up,

Then plow ahead. No one there is who

Can keep them from their pointed rounds

Cept you, the poem, icicle tin can melody.

Voracious tigers, touch typing melting frozen air.

 

 

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WHY, YOU OL' CUR MUDGE'UN!

      --after Wally McRae wondered aloud if he'd been

        paid for appearing in "The United States of Poetry"

 

 

Now, don't get me wrong. (I coulda been wrong.

I surely am often enough.)

But in this instance, despite your insistence --

Well, let's say I got caught in a bluff.

 

The dough in your pocket lit up like a socket,

And plugged those bills lickety-split.

It was simply a pass through. I'm hopin' it will do

To send you a xerox of it.

 

Money for po'try -- hell, it aughta be free!

It's enough to give Faust a complex.

Keepin' books and the score, and mindin' the store,

Is that how you define success?

 

Myself I'll say golly, the situation here, Wally,

Is rather like one's weddin' night --

The first one was as good as you knew it would,

So, Polygamists of the World, Unite!

 

To end the story, no reason for "sorry"

The whole thing's an accident.

There's nothin' to learn from what poems can earn

No matter how much -- it's been spent.

 

 

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THE WORLD THAT MIGHT’VE BEEN

      for Mumia Abu-Jamal

 

 

Mighta been a place we’d all be welcome

Hello, c’mon sit down a spell

Mighta been a world we’d all be smilin

Content to remember when

 

Now I can’t get past the present

The present’s a prison, a cell

A block, a number, a clock

A gun, some keys, a chair

 

When they come to the door

      I’ll blow righht through it

Gun, breath, not waiting

Their lie to the root

 

I’ll take out the bell

      They could never hear

This hell they created

      Will ring their ears exploding

 

What kind of violence

      Does wisdom bring

I’ll breathe doom sound

      The shriek sing

 

I’m positive, too, kick

The door and you are dead

I’ve suffocated your anti-life

I am fire, slicing rock

 

How can I be so sure

Where were you yesterday

Everyone knows my address

Your walls quake, can’t hold

 

Everyone knows I have gone

I’ll not return

Take my body

It’s useless, and all you want

 

How can I be sure?

You come to me for answers!

I will not answer

I am not the dancer

 

Piled up body parts by the door

That’s the headline

Couldn’t push the door open

Body parts stacked and labelled

 

Body parts alpabeticized

Divided by color and weight

Put the puzzle to life

I am not that mass

 

What parts did I hide

Did I throw to a thief

Strapped into a cradle

The birds took their pick

 

My writings, I broadcast

To air, my thoughts I

Sing to my people and flyy

Sing while I flyy

 

Use my words

It’s the only bullet left

Hope emerges, shyly,

Generics burst

 

Ax knife hammer

Claw to bone

Kill hunger

Save home

 

Move move move move

Love love love love

Give give give give

Live live live live

 

 

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YOU HATE ME. IT'S OK. I'M OLD

 

 

You hate me. It's OK. I'm old

And remember hating me too. Now,

Not. Someday, perhaps. Your love

Looks me in the eye. No Blink.

 

I am Thought, and breath my

Children. A gungho rapture

And a weeder of substance

Claw the castle portal. I would

 

N't because I'm you, slightly off

To the side with a fragrant view.

How did the reading go, Friend?

If I may call you friend, I do.

 

 

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try another year?