The Four Sightings

 

1 The wind in Santa Fe (slamming the door shut)

 

2. The ad in New York  (Liz Murray wins the prize)

 

3. The dream w/ walkway and stream (E is rolling underwater)

 

4, The Murray signs along the Prince of Wales 2nd Line route

 

5. Lunch w/ Aggie Gund at

 

 

 

Another Love Poem

 

Hold on there, Tiger!

 

In fact, quite the opposite

is true!

 

It's true

things are you know clenched

like a motherfucker, I could tell

you a buncha stories de ma vie

ahora, pero let's talk about You.

 

You are consummate and true,

realer and vigorouser, smarter

and fulla whiplash takedowns.

Doing anything tonight after the show?

 

 

 

At the Center w/ Lao Tze

 

At the center of your being

you have the answer;

you know who you are

and you know what you want.

 

 

 

Beads

 

sweat beadsÕ first poem crackles dry ravine spotlight
 clack prayer beads second poem wish hope manifest
one word central new necklace love breast bead poem 3
 now the beads are birthing sluice jewel seeds apop
all beads in place walk fifth poem home tender buttons

 

 

Bereft

 

You left

 

 

 

 

Bigger Mac

 

Is Bigger than Any Other Mac

So whatÕs it to ye, McMac?

ItÕs a MacMac, itÕs that kinda Mac

Macaroni Mickey Phony Balognaboney

Biggest Mac superior-sized washoutaholic

Plus guaranteed 100% MacCrap

 

 

WhatÕs Blake Got to Do with It, Got to Do with It?

 

Love another gives its ease,
     And builds a heaven in hellÕs despair.
     .     .     .     .     .     .     .     .     .
Love seeketh only self to please,
     To bind another to its delight,
Joys in anotherÕs loss of ease,
     And builds a hell in heavenÕs despite,

seeketh not itself to please

 

 

 

Blue Hills of Morning

 

blue hills of morning running to the sea
tug of fog hinting at the slow sky
all night waiting for morning -- here it is

 

 

 

 

Blue Tent

I've forgotten.

 

(Sparrow and Bob Holman)

 

 

 

BOX --

Unbuild box!
Deboxify box!
Unbox antibox! Call it
No box!

 

 

Walking Brooklyn Bridge

 

This stunning stand,

Lifting, rocketing towards sun!

IcarusÕ dream, the span

Pointing the empty sky,

Where Towers had been

The day the clouds rolled back

To allow a little light in here

 

Manahatta touches bridgeÕs landing

Police get educated here! The sick enter all doors here!

Trinity Church spire tilty above

Below foaming, probing -- here the city erects

 

Police car waits like a cat and Brooklyn shyly beckons, love ends

Chinese father in a light running suit, his daughter in fashionable mixed plaids

Manhattan Bridge searches north, crossing like an acrobat

And south then to the Verrazano, stretched below the glass caverns of Wall

Tall ships now a tourist attraction! South Street Seaport! Om!

Lay the words on you! Sprinkle organic jimmies!

 

East River is inviting ah, blue green this morning, twinkling

Suicide fence running alongside, equidistant, no problem

All wall spread out crazy quilt to the southwards

Thrum and thunder, speeding cars

A bench -- who sits, who writes?

 

Helicopters hover GovernorÕs Island

Uptown blocked by projectÕs tiff, Empire State peaks between

Manhattan bridge looming over FDR attracting buzzing small plane,

Two dogs, their masters in matching red berets

 

And here at last long cables swoop rough roped steel

Anchored through hand cut boardwalk gaudy streetlamps rusting

Handrails change the ballast

Here the crossing wires, the famous photo of the workers spread across the Dada sky

Pedestrians to the right     bicycles to left     walking the centre

 

Electric line, illuminating globes parting the night opera

Flag atop Arabic arch, negative spaceÉ.

And the first cell phone of the day!

 

Oh Manhattan, Tow! Spooling over proprietary river, opening the tower shields!

14,000! the Total mileage of Wire rope Ð RoeblingÕs invention, thatÕs

How he got the job! noted on the plaques, the official plaques!

The official garbage can! you are now officially on Brooklyn side!

 

Williamsburg as seen through Manhattan Bridge web

Brooklyn marries Queens! Sea wharves slowly mounting, river of movement

Staten Island! her ferry setting out

 

Tourists with video cameras     cell phone after cell phone

Some in heavy winter coats this blazing sun day fall

Others in shorts and tee shirts insist global warming is a daily occurrence

 

Cables slide back to rest       midpoint balance

Ah, the official benches! why not sit here, see you face to face?

Write a poem, hymnÉ the Truism of the Totality of the Universality!

Sailboat salt     motorboat sugar     Circle Line bracken     ferry silt

Commerce slow this Sunday mornÉ.

I approach you, these thoughts of you.

 

Begin slight descent -- again the rockets, the Arabian sights

Looming elegance, sheer geometry stone

Someone has left a note and a rose!

Korean soldiers in gold pea coats!

 

Cables lift and fall -- the Watchtower announces itself

The now familiar descent, Earth itself rushing up

Parents pointing    children not looking    surly teens with hands dug in

 

Tension packed, lifts, shot off, Brooklyn gestures, ÒCome in!Ó

The park that borders the river

The ferry landing with no ferry

Exit signs for the BQE land lashes out

The trees, the autumn trees of Cadman Plaza

 

Over my shoulder, the other bridges come to rest in congruent conjunction

Oblivious baby in oversized stroller an hourÕs extra sleep today

The smells of spice and rot and salt and gasoline

The fence finally gives pause gratitude and stress

And sweep at the moment of choice

Walk up swirling splitting subway to the sky river to the stars

As I turn and walk Walt home

 

 

                                                                                   

 

 

Columbia S07 ÒI RememberÓ Demo/Performance (after Joe Brainard)

 

I remember the sundial in 1968 and MarkÕs idealistic face as the idea of going to the gym site came to him Ð how natural and organic a balmy day just a hint of cold Ð dancing down Amsterdam, everyone chatting, exhilarating, the cops came, Fred lost his glasses, this went on for hours

 

I remember how different time was then Ð IÕd have to walk out of the demo now and go somewhere important

 

Luckily we plot our own art movement (ÒBody ArtisticÓ) in class Ô07

I remember saying I give up! to my class at Columbia Ô07

I canÕt teach anymore could someone else please teach?

 

I remember Matt saving the class

 

I remember how amazing this particular class is

with people walking out in protest all the time

and finally we all walked out

 

How we walked single file

 

How nobody noticed

 

How our escape routes never materialized or needed to

something about a button on BrettÕs sign

something about a banana on mine

 

I remember we felt like a unity

after so much singularity in the classroom

the idea of everyone protesting whatever they wanted together

was the final idea for the class performance

 

How beautiful the green sign of nothing on the sundial

 

 

As da Would Say

 

As da levy would say

fuck the bullshit right back into the bull

tank the bank

leave it blank

the poem factory never closes

when you canÕt read my books

read my mind when you canÕt

read my mind let me borrow

yrs Ð I will publish it

on the other side of the street

where the words are always green

having an extra vowel added

to make the land tell the truth

covered as it is by the ash,

the paper, the ink is the poem

 

 

 

 

DonÕt Keep (Me Waiting)

 

DonÕt

DonÕt keep

Do not keep me

DonÕt keep me waiting

 

for whatever it is

you think should happen next

it ainÕt this this it is not that this and if

when it is or not hey No

 

DonÕt keep me waiting

Do not keep me

DonÕt keep

DonÕt

 

 

ElizabethÕs Flowers

 

how beautful these flowers grow

miscanthus hockhollies cosmos

all around the swimming pool

hotfooted paving cool water

 

 

 

ElizabethÕs Memorial

 

It was too long

I didnÕt have the heart

To cut the crying

 

 

 

Elizabeth: Five Minuets at a Time

 

Many have asked for Òthe briefest descriptionÓ or Òanything, anything at all,Ó Òa shred, perhaps?Ó of what it was liked to be married to Elizabeth Murray for all those years. It is something, correct?, that I was rarely asked this question while Madame was alive. Occasionally another Òwife of the artistÓ (IÕm thinking here of pals Leon Falk and Whitfield Lovell, hey guys) would raise eyebrows with me at being referred to as Mr Murray or in WhitfieldÕs case, as Fred himself (get the picture?).

 

While speaking with me, Elizabeth would always be creating: drawing or painting or jotting notes. This was her mode, the Work mode. She would take time off for the kids, not for me; I was therefore in both sides of her life and, as has been documented, was given access to Name That Painting, a task E did not enjoy (there were many tasks she did not enjoy).

 

This brings up her image of the intertwined 5 fingers. This was one of her great leaps into art Ð to draw Òcartoon handsÓ (not really!) with five fingers. Each finger on the right hand is playing a different Minuet. On the left is where we are married, and in love, and nothing will ever come between us.

 

 

 

 

GOOD MORNING

 

what's so good about it?

 

barking dog

concrete sawing machine

obligations

appointments

must be three places at once

last night in bed

dreaming of you

where has my life gone

 

 

 

Hey you

 

While I was writing Hey you
I was saying Hey you to you!

 

 

 

First Joke

Too cold this morning. Feet are planks as they freeze on impact to the tiles. What the fuck. Gray out the window not fog but paint -- somebody came and painted the window gray during the night. Expect it to be bricked in by tomorrow. There was an interesting hollow next to me when I awoke, as if someone had slept next to me. Hahaha. Don't you just love the first joke of the morning?

 

 

 

 

 

I am sorry we couldn't

I am sorry we couldn't

have time last night

so sweet and so hot

plums melting at midnight

 

 

 

I Am Plant

 

I Am

 

            IÕm not! IÕm in

Front of you like a poem

            lying await in the con

 

Tinuous presense it rolls

            a wheel of glass

That feels right on noggin

            & rushes past language

 

 

Plant

 

 

Plant the idea seed

            into the mind ground

and grow the fruit idea

            then get a stomach ache

 

And see which way youÕll follow

            IÕm not! IÕm in

Front of you like a poem

            lying await in the con

 

Tinuous presence it rolls

            a wheel of glass

That feels right on noggin

            & rushes past language

 

 

 

 

Speaking of Relationships

 

I could never understand your Mind

No never understand what you were saying

Whatever it is you are talking about is would you

Mind speaking in a fashion that communicates

Reciprocates with the Sir Tongue mishegoss

I got the Ears and Brains whatÕs the Big Mouth

All about?  Repetition is the only possible

Way to go if you think maybe rehearing is going

To make some difference as to whether

ThereÕs any sense to be made out of the non-duh

What other possible out come could this here be

To this relationship excepting for the over

And over again trying to comprenez vous and

Verstehen sie und auch tu entiendes you betcha

You betcha you betcha IÕll say you and betcha

Will say something that actually is something to say

About this here act oÕ communication

This emblematic portent this encouraging

Ambiguity. I mean, what are you, speaking

In Farsi? Martian? And my name is huh hello?

 

 

 

I dreamed much mud

 

I dreamed of much mud and embarrassing situations, wearing a tshirt only, having to pull it down to cover IT, hold IT down, sliding THROUGH cars , trucks/vans actually... my shrink was putting us (me and girls?) up, but he was old and frail w/ a silly mustache...

 

 

 

I see the World Trade Tower

 

I see the World Trade Tower, curvy and growing in all directions

I see all kinds of flowers and I have to be concrete

OK I see the sun(flowers) and the blue(bells)

Iris cosmos black-eyed susans daisies (my faves)

I see lakes from above

Oceans from below

In sneakers walking into the attic

 

 

 

Oral Tradition

 

I still hear the stones grinding time, spitting out stories....

 

 

 

If You See Something,
Say Something

Banana






 

 

 

Full disclosure:
Published in a limited edition of 144, signed & numbered by:
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Letterpress printing from handset type- Dikko Faust
Linoleum cut illustration- by Polly EllaNora Smith Faust
Editor/designer--Esther K Smith

Heard on WNYC-FM ÒMorning EditionÓ
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Produced by Jocelyn Gonzalez

Chanted on Sundial, Columbia U
By Bob Holman's "Exploding Text" class
March 21, 2007

 

 

If

 

Only

 

 

 

 

Elizabeth: Instincts

 

wow do I love to hear

yr instincts yr wild raw

instincts bubbling up

stream in a dream

Bergman grasses untangle

pubic hairs unmesh

reveal Angel Elizabeth

 

 

 

It Might Be Lonelier (Without the Loneliness)

 

There was a time when and if there is some time left now

IÕd just like you to remember we are both alive

 

Soon

 

          Enough

 

Everything else will happen, or not Ð in fact

The extreme dailiness of the hour (hello, it is

9:49 am, the 17th of July, 2007, on North Grimes

Hill Road) and the

Big blue tranquilizer bobbing on a green flat

In the windowÕs reflection of the dance rests

I am looking and looking and looking

When you say itÕs ok

To stop looking and

I stop looking

 

 

 

 

 

Krsna

 

Dear One, All Seeing

Tasting and Smelling what is the

yummiest yum of the yumyumyum

???????????????????????????

 

A line of forever wonÕt wait a second

A tangerine solace, a brilliant beer apocalypse, a

Frantic fuck and a meandering slight graze

Of skin upon skin ALL

 

Is

                           YOU

 

And when they say,

                        Hey

            WhatÕs yr name?

 

Will you say I am Blue Flute, The Forever

The Essential

The Proposterous Silence

The Everlasting Nod

The Ton of Love

???????????????????????????

 

 

                        My

                        Sweet

                        Lord

                        !

 

 

Kumbija Kantaba

 

A funny one

a person with very very bad luck

God hates him!

thatÕs what Kumbija Kantaba means

to the extent that whatever he does,

thereÕs God, shaking his head

and wondering why he isnÕt doing something else

 

heÕs a very hard working man

but no luck at all

say he goes to a big feast- well,

his food turns to mud or sand

while the other peopleÕs food is gooood, so good

 

TubanyouÑmaize, Delicious!

sanyoÑmillet, Incredibly tasty!

mannoÑrice, Wow!

even geoÑwater, thirst-quenching water

geoÑturns to blood

oooooooooooooooh

 

so one day he goes

and sits under a big jahlo tree

 

ÒGod!Ó he cries to the skies

God!

I did everything! I tried everything I could

but no success

I have never enjoyed anything!

God! So please go ahead and kill me!Ó

Then a big branch falls off the tree and lands right beside him

the man jumps off and runs off shouting

ÒNow I understand everything!Ó

 

 

 

Labiarynth

 

Last night underwater swim with Lady of the Lake

Faraway faraway hmm underwaterfall was a-washinÕ

The rocks' socks and stones' phones

Twas beyond the cool tractatus, verily kissed among thee

With a nose for a nose and a mouth for a mouth

Together agallop this body illiquid

 

 

 

 

Life

 

LifeÕs a funny place to be

When youÕre me

 

 

 

Lord Sangpala

 

Real time walks over claps hands attention

The painter is closing shop the fountain dissolves

Into the water The sidewalk is now the dust and the

The is now the now and then the 

 

 

 

 

Love it


love it. of course i've seen you, as you've seen me, and i see the you in you as i hope you vices me verses. The lights are on, our eyes are open then they close around that moment called our First Kiss and then. And then the lights are off and our eyes are open as we are to each other now and forever. Forever as we know and only we know is now, the eternal now of knowing/not knowing. I want to hold you and laugh with you at the amazing world that has served us up to each other, a gift, delight, luscious and physical and gentle, Venus from the sea. Two days is forever if we can hold the moment as you hold me I hold you. That's all I ask for everything. And a simple moment. And everything else a memory made real.

 

 

 

Love

                        -- for Elizabeth

 

Your hand throws out

As you sleep

 

And brushes

Another body

 

Lands and settles

On the other body

 

Except it is your hand

And it is my body 

 

 

 

Matutinal Ambuscade

 

May the New Year bring new news

May the news be better

New news to surround

Like a newspaper round fillet

 

 

 

Mmmm

 

Indeed

 

 

 

Motorcycle

 

Good news!

Is the motorcycle

You rode in on

Is ready for you

To ride out on

 

 

 

No Problem

 

Problem!

 

Over here!

 

I got one!  More than one, actually, a whole batch of them!

 

My Life is actually one Big Problem made of a gazillion tiny ones.

 

Help! Problem! Over here! Right this way!

 

No problem to find problem! come on over here.

 

We got em by the sack, problems problems, problems.

 

How dare you tell me, ÒNo problem.Ó Are you kidding?

 

Problem Problem! Problem!

 

 

 

 

 

No Uh

 

How can I apologize

Lemme count the weighs

First I am an asshole, ridiculous slippers on a howling moon

Then I cut no slack, bled bone dry in a lobster's bed

Perhaps some transitions here as our old friends they all are dead

Then the reawakening horror of ongoingness

Crapola yet again bogosity sneezearfle rot flump

 

And in conglusion

 

The Czech she is in the male

 

 

 

 

Oddly Enough

 

I am also wandering nowhere

in search of Elizabeth. Oddly enough,

I seem to be making some headway!

 

 

 

Old Shorts

 

I am patient as the windshield I look through

For you

 

Here Goes Nothing

Sleep into the beckoning day

Sleep into me.

 

 

You, on the other hand--

are out of hand

 

 

on the train

 

after hoisting just

one wit you, start li'l poem

to the long married

 

 

 

Orgasm School

 

You want to read it!

They want to read it!

EVERYBODY wants to read ÒOrgasm SchoolÓ!

Hell, even I want to read that poem

The one you cum on, the one that teaches you how to

 

 

 

The Other Side

 

Greenwash      Whitewash

DonÕt look      CanÕt see anyway      

Wait a second              A second second

Window

ItÕs the wind. Oh!

ItÕs the art of existence

            Balanced on the tip

                        Of your eyelash

 

 

 

 

I hate it, being labeled a Òperformance poet!Ó ItÕs what my teacher, Walter Ong, called a retronym Ð renaming the original because the new model has become the standard. The example Ong uses is Òa horse is an automobile without wheels,Ó and what draws his ire is ÒOral LiteratureÓ (why not ÒWritten OratureÓ?). But there you have it, it doesnÕt ÒsoundÓ right (donÕt you love the sound of ÒsoundÓ?). And besides, Every poem must contain its opposite! So I took this epithet  as a challenge, and hereÕs my poem,

 

Performance Poem

 

which starts off with an epigraph (for the vocabularians:  epigraph: quote at beginning of poem; epigram: pithy, witty ÒsayingÓ; epitaph: words on tombstone; epithet: curse) (this is where the intro may seem to swamp the poem, but remember that in the Oral Tradition the poem is the entire event. So, by that definition, this is all part of the poem!), starts off with an epigraph, as I was saying, by that great Performance Poet, Rainer Maria Rilke:

 

 

Voices. Voices. Listen, my heart, as only

saints have listened; until the gigantic call lifted them

off the ground; yet they kept on, impossibly,

kneeling and didnÕt notice at all:

so complete was their listening.

                                    --Rilke

 

 

 

 

HeÕs diving off the front of the stage!

You better bring the house lights up some,

The audience canÕt see him.

HeÕs still screaming,

Screaming and dancing

And heÕs twirling the mic --

I dunno, should we turn off the mic?

I dunno, turn it up?

HeÕs running around, heÕs twirling and

HeÕs still like reading.

The book is in his hands, sort of, the people

Seem to like it, theyÕre into it --

Maybe itÕs part of the act.

 

If itÕs part of the act he shoulda told us!

Now heÕs in the back of the house -- heÕs

Still going strong. This is pretty

Amazing. IÕve never seen anything

Like this! HeÕs running out

Of the theater -- I can still hear him screaming

In the lobby. HeÕs back in the house!

(WhatÕs he saying? -- ItÕs something about

It sounds like Òlake snore freedomÓ....

I dunno. ÒBreaking down reasonÓ?)

Oh shit! Oh shit oh shit -- heÕs got a gun!

 

Christ! wait -- awww, itÕs just one of those pop guns.

Shoots like firecrackers or popcorn or --

What about the hat? Still wearing the hat.

Holy -- heÕs dying now, I mean heÕs acting like that,

Like heÕs dying. This is it for poetry in this house man,

IÕve had it.

 

HeÕs just lying there.

The audience is wailing, theyÕre keening

You know, like at a wake. No, I do not think

HeÕs really dead. HeÕs getting back up, see, I told

You -- itÕs all part of the act!

 

ItÕs all part of the end of the world.

What am I, the guyÕs father?

Come here! Look at the monitor yourself

HeÕs ditched the mic somewhere,

Should I go get the mic?

Look! oh my God -- heÕs, whatÕs it called,

HeÕs going up, heÕs levitating!

Holy shit! The roof, the roof is going up

Music is coming in

The crowdÕs up outta the chairs, man this is it

This is it IÕm telling you --

Raising the fucking roof is what heÕs doing!

Now heÕs back on the stage with his poetry stuff

Yeah heh heh yeah,

 

He never left the stage

ItÕs what his poem was about

IÕm just saying what heÕs saying

Through the headset

Yeah, heÕs good

HeÕs pretty good alright

But I could write something like that

Anybody could write something like that

 

 

Plenty

 

Sad

 

 

 

RhythmÕs Melody

 

Nothing

Could make me happier than

Everything

Dreaming of you is the shit

IÕd love your tongue only your tongue your blessed tongue red and darting lolly thick Thunderous tonguerous tonguearoonie

Slip Slipperty slidezor the tongor

 

 

Two for Romero

 

From the Inside

 

From the inside these guys

Obviously are writing a poem

To be transmitted telepathically

Globally resulting in briskly

Reformulating an all-new barber

Shop quartet Mr Ear meet Mr

Mouth all directions going South

Singing all together now what?

"You can hum it. At the summit."

 

Big Poet Pow Wow Wows Whitney

 

All news wonÕt fit in print Flora Biddle!

One guy rumbling off the stage says

To the other guy, ÒLordy if this is

The Summer of Love gimme the

Winter of Fractious Locutions!Ó and

Immediate hoopla they dance all night in

The moist gallery of latent hippydippity

Cream thoughts, unity jelly, sharing art.

 

 

 

IÕve Left (for Bern Porter)

 

weÕre all on the same page

but thereÕs no page left

weÕve been preaching to the choir

but the choir has up & left

weÕve been part of the left

but thereÕs no left left

Hallelujah! as for me Ð IÕve left

 

 

 

 

Secret

 

I thought you

promised

to keep our

secret

secret

 

 

Sembene

me: I saw Camp T-C today -- 2 1/2 hrs!

 Paul: another masterpiece?

 me: almost. actually the first I've seen that was disapppointing -- very didactic. Plus, there are NO WOMEN

 Paul: haha -i am used to DIDACTIC WOMEN

 me: Yes, they are, magnificently sexily so whilst the poor ol dudes w/ 3 wives are left w/o a hardon to standon

 

 

 

 

The Definition of Funny (Four poems by Flash and Bob)

 

The Definition of Funny

 

The truth only faster

 

Bob Holman and Flash Rosenberg

 

 

Two People

 

Make a quote

 

Flash Rosenberg and Bob Holman

 

 

 

Quotation Marks

 

Two people listing

Listening

 

 

Period

 

Run on

 

 

 

Another Interesting Turkmen

 

Late president
Saparmurat Niyazov

Renamed the days of the week

For members of his family

 

 

 

 

 

I Still Hear the Stones Grinding Time

 

I still hear the stones grinding time, spitting out the stories.....

still hear stories grinding time, spitting out the stonesÉ.

keith, mick, all of them chewed up old men

between stories and stones, I choose the open road.......

how can you tell the motherland from the fatherland?

(my attempt to raise the poem to a higher level, beyond stones)

your thoughts of the motherland are not the motherland.        

leaving a seam of language, quartz threaded through slate

and papa was a rolling stone--wherever he laid his hat

between the stones without names and the graves without stones

my brother, a lonesome tax collector

a crescent of ice-green sea shimmers beyond the ridge

(collaboration with: Zeitlin, Zavatsky, Litzky, Sirowitz, Gerardi, Anderson, Smith, Kaufman, Sparrow, Landry)

 

 

IÕm Into Shy

 

DonÕt ask me why

DonÕt ask me name

I forgot what we were talking about

I am looking the other way

On purpose because I am into shy

And that is my way to say please

Lay off me for a minute

Please donÕt barge into me with questions

I am into shy

I am into shy

The sun is my mother

The moon my other mother

Two mothers, is that why

I am into shy

The rabbits are my sisters

And the turtles my brothers

And my twin is a parrot

Who says what you sayÉ

 

 

 

Sing This One Back to Me

 

Honeybee honeybee deep in the honeytree

Do not tell me to suck dry the tips of whip grass

Swan sway swan sway Ganges flows all day

Would you send me off then to the blasting seas?

Tale singer nightingale crooner carousing on the leaf drip

Who dares say, Excuse me, quiet please, eat dry leaf clippings

This robin rocking tail lit by the fullest moon

Try to redirect to fogbound swirl, see what happens to you

My feet on the lotus? No, my feet are the lotus!

All God? Gosh, I was looking over at you Ð shh.

No need this talking, this poem so obvious, shh.

 

Soulful

In a message dated 5/24/2007 3:42:34 A.M. Eastern Daylight Time, ken@hkschueler.com writes:

 Dear Bob, thanks for your kind message with news of Elizabeth. I met with Dr. Miller on Tuesday morning  just after you left-sorry to have missed you both.

Humana has been intractable in not paying for Sutent, so I have insisted on an outside reviewer and I have filed a formal complaint on their delays in responding to communications. I wish I could report more positive news. In a week ASCO (American Society of Clinical Oncology) will be meeting (largest cancer meting in the world) and  we are hoping that there may be another presentation or abstract on Sutent for NSCLC, to further support the formulary waiver.

 

I wish you and Elizabeth an enjoyable graduation day with Daisy.

 

With best regards,

 

Ken

From: Nuyopoman@aol.com [mailto:Nuyopoman@aol.com] 
Sent: Thursday, May 24, 2007 8:24 AM
To: ken@hkschueler.com
Subject: Re: Sutent

 

Ken, I am so glad there is a you, and relieved that since there luckily is I somehow know you so one part of this Glorious Ordeal (Life) is abated, sweetened, loosened, possible for wholeness.

 

Sorry to've missed you too.

 

Love

Bob

Dear Bob, I am deeply touched by your soulful words. Relationships are precious and knowing you and Elizabeth comes to me as a gift.

With  warmest regards,

Ken

 

 

 

 

 

Stones Stories 2

 

I still hear the  stones grinding time, spitting out the stories....

and, yet, i hear the stories grinding time, spitting out the stones

 

 

 

 

Tara as sung by Papa Susso to Bob Holman

 

Cheik Omar Taal!  Cheik Omar Taal!

Cheik Omar Taal a religious man in Mali 14th century

Tara means he is gone

Moussa yea- la la la

 

when papa growls

the earth shakes and

is in transformation

from voice to earth

 

deep goes the voice

deep goes the earth

 

when the kora strings soar

then the voice sings and zips along

like a kite string without a kite

what is holding up the string?

that is the wind of the wind

the wind, you see, has a secret that only

the jeli can tell you

just as sound has meaning

so the wind has other wind we call tara

 

the strings are sailing along lightly

they are flying (no kite to

hold them up, as I said before)

 

and then

along comes the kora

to snap the string

put them on verse

like a beautiful dress

the African word for dress

 

he came from a place called Segau

well known around the world

Walliou Ð God sent messengers

God sent many many many many Walliou

to deliver messages to all the people

wonderful things to open peoples eyes

 

before Cheik Omar Taal was born his father had a dream

that he was gonna have a son like that

there was an older brother one year two months old

his father was a Marabout they were traveling by foot step by step by step by step

it gets dark and it was time for prayer

Hayred the fourth prayer, the evening prayer, Cheik OmarÕs father says Òwe have to prayÓ

 

his wife put the baby down and they started to pray

a hyena came and came closer threatening them

but his father and his mother were praying to God

they could see Allah so they did nothing

the hyena took the baby away

Cheik OmarÕs father says ÒWife! why didnÕt you save the baby? I was praying to GodÓ

his wife said Òyou serve only one person, I serve two, God and you

as my husband so I cannot stop

if you had stopped, I would have stopped but I cannot, aloneÓ

 

ÒOk if that is the reason why you couldnÕt stop I am going to ask Allah to give you a new baby and this baby will be known all over the world for the sacrifice that his mother made to AllahÓ

 

ÒOh great AllahÓ prayed Cheik OmarÕs father Òyou have seen what has happened with the hyena and my babyÓ

Allah replied ÒIÕm gonna give you a Walliou child, born in Segou, a very famous town

 

at 15 Cheik Omar becomes a Walliou prosperity comes to all his family

and he is asked to be the chief, the king ÒnoÓ he replies

ÒI cannot because as chief I cannot serve God in the proper wayÓ

I want to be Allahkajong- a servant of GodÓ

 

next thing you know Cheik Omar fights a holy war for God

itÕs a long long long long long story

it could take all day. itÕs all about how Islam came to that part of Africa

itÕs about the Christian missionaries and their battles to control Africa

itÕs about the animists and their desire to keep the old ways

and its all about the Walliou, the messenger who brought the songs of Allah

the songs for the Griots

 

Cheik Omar moved from Segou to Hamdallah

then a Griot came from another town to Segou but didnÕt know

that Cheik Omar had gone. Instead he sees the churches that the missionaries have built

he sees the European schools

he picks up his engoni and begins this song

ÒTara!Ó he begins, ÒCheik Omar Taal is gone

Tara! He is gone!Ó

 

 

 

 

 

The Loving FatherÕs Song

Papa SussoÕs Poem for His Young Children
Moussa, Kinda, Fatoumata, Sarjo, Abdullah

 

The first time a father tells his child

The child is nowhere to be seen

 

The second time

What is that strange buzzing I hear

 

The third time the child

must go get something to eat

 

And then on the fourth time

The Child starts to hear something

 

When I tell you it the fifth time

You say to me, Are you talking to me

 

And on the sixth time you reply,

What language is that you are speaking

 

By the time I have told you the seventh time

The words become a song and the poem becomes the kora

 

And you must learn it my little griots

And then you can repeat the story

 

And the story goes like this:

 

48 years I have been working,

Spreading the word of the griot

Spreading the word around the world

And sending the money home to you

 

And Sankung is here

And Al Hassan is here

And Fatou is on her way

And Mariama is on her way

And Karamo is on his way

 

And I think I may be on my way

On my way to the Gambia

To return to the griot life at the Koriya Musa Center

For Research in Oral Tradition at Sotuma-Sere

 

So my dear children

Who carry the word of the griot

From my father Alhaji Bunka Susso, jelikuntigi of the Gambia

Through me to you and back to the first Susso who made the first Kora

I sing the song of the father who tells the children it is time for them to begin

The new generation of which I sing

And which you will live and carry on

And buy each othersÕ tickets and pay for each othersÕ rent

And teach other the ways of Africa and United States

Of Gambia and the world

And know this song is the loving father Father Song

 

 

 

 

The Prudent Toaster

How provident the prudent toaster

Evident in the roller coaster

 

 

Particular

Patient

Persnickety

 

 

The Prudent Toaster

 

Browned enough

Dark enough

Warm enough

Crispy enough

Just enough

Perfectly prudent

 

 

 

Petulant

Petrarca

Plenarian

Plentiful

Purty

Perty

Perky

Powwowish

I wish

Wash, I wash you

 

Cannot remember the correct "p" adjective

You gave your wonderful toaster

Particular

Patient

Persnickety

 

Just gotta be "the great toaster that knows to take its time and will regardless

And always

Perfect"

 

what is it about that toaster

that reminds me of you

 

I certainly have a lot of fun

remembering all the fun

we have to remember

 

 

 

The Story

 

my grandfather was a peddlar

schlepping pots and pans

no English but price tags

told The Story

 

 

 

ThisÕll Be the Day

 

To You, World

 

I regret the only language I can speak is poetry and deep muscle tissue massage sex

And I have no regrets

Blue triangles in the afternoon of my birth

Day first spring

Again my youth

In front of me

Big chew from Yemen

Tender snake outta Tennessee

Drowning in nostalgia in the Yangtze with you with you (with you)

 

Good morning, good luck

Times the number of number waiting at the bodega

Coolly representing Lucky Juice Joint number 58

As cool as Snowfall in  Nutcracker March 10

As hot as clitoral lake magma

 

Where was I? Oh, yes oh no

Be born again, Madre

In the Babel I was spoken too

When I fucked everything up and you still loved me the word

When I fell in the mudpud and the turt brusted mine vest syllably

I was a lone clown

But now that I am President

IÕm kill fascists before they kill freedom

Poem loaded

In revolver

And IÕm not googling for truth no more no more

 

So step into the circus baby

Eat the singing veggibles that

Build no-wait busstops

Singing Hallelujah my hitchhiking days

Are back again, here again

 

To my friends who are alive in jail: Christopher X Brodeur,

To friends who died: Paul Gulielmetti, Hank Kuhn, Barbara Guest, Zoe Angelsey

To rhymes come harder as the Columbia Brigade downshifts

The accordion logs in the field of crass

Eleemosynary advances into fat universal ear

 

Call me 2123346414

Or send me IM

I ainÕt getting any younger, Bubbulah

ÒCall me RosebuttÓ

 

 

 

 

Too Blue

too blue, too many lines.

waving, as in ocean

anti-depression. then, a kick

of water in mouth and

a spew as you too

liquify and forget

 

 

 

The Trip

ÒEven though I am a Hippie/sometimes I just cannot Love.Ó

                                                               --Sparrow

 

Brain universe totality afloat in skull sea eternity pill

Bluesilver Redgold Greenblack Gelitentacle Aieee

Balance elephant dance construct on shell of giant tortoise

GooÕbye! We gonÕ missinÕ you! You a-goin on a tripÕn

Everyone else is here waving adios weiedersehn

Ciao sayanora  a bientot gooby googoo

Googly all eyes on you! Luckily (all ways ÒluckilyÓ)

So much going on county fair-wise carousel ferris wheel

Running circles merry-go-rounds of energy from

Organ grinderÕs cranking monkey scat tapdance shuffle candy coton

Corn dog braying contests allow you to nip round back

oÕFreakshow tent with little purple barrels of Trip ~~~~~ Light

Bulb smashes slivers teeth grit dripping light

 

Welcome Well Come Writewritewrite Po Dem

Poor everybody All Emotion whatÕs the word for

 

For gold shone shine on Holy Mount Vaginas of Tamalpais

Acid Tribal Gathering Riposte: All nod together now

NO CAN WRITE ink blending into page, itÕs All One

 

Here I capped the mesc

Split the little containers plastique

Get wacky wordy Scooooop the brown brain pow

Der in and slip other half cap in and twisty ThatÕs one

Put it aside and dive into Two

Know what it means to dive into two

ThatÕs the part that allows no digressions as my Man

Hammers around on the ark where we take two

Of each kind, tanGoing who is your Other? and as sun sets my other ManÕs

Man just hears Moon

Will join our ark space launch slated for later the same ~~~~~~~~

We are going to the moon, now luckily the moon will be with us, so

We will already be there before we leave! Get image beyond definition rose

 

Destination Road Rise Rose

Terrific flower gold sun blossom into single bud eternal stillness enwrapped

Rapt all possibility no actuality hyper image of no image What Will Be Rose

Green thorn paramecium coverlet, hairy ball raging, gorging scientific taxonomic dialogue with language itself

(ÒThe RiverÓ)

To all those who died believing in their reality, the Window is

Not The Window but is only the window Ð the window of the apartment with the tin fool wall paper and the Indian medal lamp covering the red bulb of love is not the window of eternal consciousness no matter how far out you may walk trying to open  the Doors of Perception on

 

O Rose thou art sick, ah Sunflower, slowly eternally sisyphisian unrolling the hard green allowing alarming smell supple red petals to unfurl their hair to beckoning sky

 

While meanwhile the strychnine has kicked in and the answer with a ding is the bell and wandering in the tchotchke store (I AM A WRITER) I buy All The Bells in the store, And The Stand They Came In On (ten dollars) É

 

Once in North Carolina Pat looked at me and said, ThatÕs just like you, youÕd rather trip with strangers than relax with your girlfriend

 

I got a phone call from Danny DuBoff and Will Daily to come to this party (or was it Jocko?) that there was some crazy ass weed there so I jumped out of bed told Pat IÕd be back and lit out for the gathering where we smoked ÒHog,Ó which would eventually pick up the moniker ÒAngel Dust.Ó Its defining characteristic was you were here, you were there, but you were never in between. Was this where I was shouting Groove on Boogey as we listened to the droning bass clack paddle bell of NonesuchÕs Chanting Tibetan Monks, one of my Top Ten Picks, up there w/ Hendrix, Beatles, Salty Dog (Procul Harem). King CrimsonÉTalking w/ Will and Danny, I went into detail of my experiencing, at which point they offered me a job to start immediately as their Taster, first assignment to work on big Mescaline Deal in Sausalito

 

O Gods of Tiny Particles, and Absurdity of Gods of Humongous Important Shit! Call on you psychedelically I got my trip shirt on, the long white embroidered Indian light as wind catcher skin itself (even better than skin!) and my Freak Flag is a-flyin, -- I donÕt think I cut my hair till 79 or 80 years, down to the ass, at war with Society, the drugs making the 2 sides speaking different languages, different consciousnesses, different worldsÉ the busted nuclear family with the overbearing mother acting like sheÕs not and the emotion-starving father and his disappearing act vs. the Family we Chose Ourselves, the commune,  our promises to stay together busting up by money, my shrink now telling me to create a Òsoft landingÓ when money becomes the Issue, and how I am maybe even doing that in buying Elizabeth all the comforts we can think of, she wakes up in the morning feeling awful, says ÒI donÕt think IÕm going to get betterÓ and yet last week, for the first time since January, six months ago, when we had to go off Patupilone, that the tumors  have been in retreatÉ

 

 

THE TRIP, Pt. II  TRIP SONG

 

Never evuh remembuh bub what ya mama tile you

Style zizzfra and the meat hammer benailed junque

And Ð mais bien sur Ð donÕt fuckin forget it either

When remember is the Trip and Forget is the whole rest of yr life!

 

THE TRIP, Pt. II  TRIP DANCE

 

THE TRIP, Pt. II  TRIP SEX

 

 

THE TRIP, Pt. II  TRIP SEX

 

THE TRIP, Pt. II  MY FIRST BOOK

ÒMay I hallucinate on your face?Ó

 

Always ask permission

 

 

Waiting for Never

 

I propose this chilly morning to the world

Itself awaiting a duh flash spilt tongue lift

From and over the cloud suture and astral

Bludgeon with pigeon slowly

Dusting the powdery snow of never

Quite spring the Bowery and people walking

Past the door they are invited into

Calm betrayal of blue caution, how

To challenge the everyday stupidity of knock?

Go in, my dear Friend, how friendship

Covers the moment grave gravy I crave

Potential even as the salty rock diamond

Stalactite drips efficiency into the trollÕs mug

Bard soap and melt the hair

Retrieve all hope that rocks out the tear

And then they would respond, all

One of them via ventricle the cerebral-spinal fluid

Ocean, speak to the shore and the river craves

The rafter to the soldier and her kin a reminder

Of uniform plaid crazed blue stain barbering

The remainder with keener resplendence

As the tough went and the leaner surrenders

All over the floor, dancing swans and minstrels

Makering a mockery brokering the brackening

Affiliate of the sore sporeÕs delight to restore

Capturing the glance momentÕs pleasure in

Significant disarray for never and a day off

Just to wish a happening birthday man the relish

Of forgetfulness and the king of dome under sun

Meshing alluvial restraint to the mitred velocity

A hand appears to float around like a magic trick

Without the magician and the church sprouts

Up like a cornstalk silk and one wink fractures

The morningside domainÕs dominion of predominant

Dominoes and prevailing veils waiting the pun

To vanish the child into the man the woman

The ages suit up and rashly billow a fragrance

All too balmy and proficient

 

 

 

 

We Met in Managua

 

It was 88 and everybody was young and skinny

sang marched and picked coffee

And drank beer and rum and slept on the floor and

Married each other barefoot

people diving smooth surfaces

into rocky interiors discover

Meditation is not meditative! It is rocky.

 

Also making love

is not such smooth sailing either, contains a passionate bite.

Ah well, let me go meditate!

 

 

 

Wedge & Loaf (translation of poem by Steve Zeitlin)

 

Life's born on the edge of the wedge

Take a crumb to it

So you get born, so be born again.

Pumpernickel, cheddar.

 

Grease life with butter, Buddy.

The heart runs it tight direct & no exit

The impossible applause of the heart Ð

Why bother to wash your heart?

Life lasts about as long as where is my sandwich

 

anyway? Oh my Friend, don't complicate things.

You're hungry. Eat.

 

 

 

What About

                        A Found Joy Harjo Poem

 

 

The mother field is immense and extremely magnetic.
Whatever happens in the mother field is multilayered, and most layers are unreachable by words.
Songs get closer.
And what about the levels of tones beyond human hearing? Beyond human voice?
Songs get closer

 

 

 

 

When the Elephant in the Room is an Elephant

 

Imagine an elephant

When all the elephants are gone

This will happen

Will you be alive to say

The elephant in the room is an elephant

Because that time is now, Dear

 

Having been to New Orleans

Having been in the Prince of Wales 2nd Line

Having heard the trumpet unmuted

Having seen the black sky break

Having felt the crowned sorrow

Of the City that Care Forgot

I am finding you

The ever presence

The quintessultima

To house no regret

To clamber aboard the all aboard

To ratify the inconclusive

To batter the cobwebs lachrymosely

Harmonize practically

Crowd out all clouded signature

Reenter the peaceable neighborhood

Rebury rally figment coast

At any cost

 

 

 

 

Wisdom

 

The wise man does not say wise man

The wise woman does not say wise woman

The three wise men do not say the three wise men

A wise guy is a wise guy

 

*

 

The wisest thing I ever heard

Put salt on tail of bird

Absurd

Till cooked and offered

 

 

*

The sound of one hand clapping

Is the same

As the sound of the other hand clapping

 

*

 

 

 

Do Not Delete! Two Found Poems Rescued From Spam

 

Don't Forget
it's free popcorn chicken day at kfc

 

 

 

 

Would you like some Extra income?

I'm not talking about getting rich.
I'm talking about a few hundred a week.
All you have to do is sit in front of your computer
for a couple hours a day!

 

 

 

xp proem and retail

 

Do not let circumstances control you. You change your circumstances.
In Hollywood if you don't have happiness you send out for it.
The stupidity of one brain multiplied by twelve.
I think my securities far outweigh my insecurities. I am not nearly as afraid of myself and my imagination as I used to be.
I have read your book and much like it.
How goodness heightens beauty!
Teach us to give and not count the cost.
All I know is I'm a Marxist.
That man never grows old who keeps a child in his heart.
A friend in power is a friend lost.
When a contradiction is impossible to resolve except by a lie, then we know that it is really a door.
Faults are beauties in a loverÕs eye.
Kids are wonderful. I like mine barbecued.

 

 

 

You Two and the Lilies (ekphrastic after photo of Jill Batson and Teresa Foley)

 

You are lilies! because, you eat lilies!
beautiful ones and twosies too
they may be noses, halloween treats
they are of course surely sex
barely waking from their buds
these lilies propagate like m+ms
on the trail to the gingerbread dominatrix
and when they sugarplum
all santa fe rouses in a red hot chili pepper
dousing the water with fire and remembering
how art explodes and everything
lives together propulsively ever after
just like us

 

 

YOU

 

I am so

All over you

I am under you too

 

You Too

 

It is morning

You are glory

It is late

You are light

 

 

 

Yum

Yum muy

You Yum

Yummy

Muy yum

Yummuy

Yum you yum

Muyyumyum

Yumyumyummy

You yum yummy

Muy muy yumyum

Yummyyum

You Yum

Yum