10 Things I Do Every Birthday

 

Stop war in Iraq by writing this poem.

 

Cogitate the labonza re: Times Op Ed piece on military strategy stating you can’t wait for war because you can’t put Time on Pause.

 

Ponder Times Business article on AOL’s announcing a new TV system that allows you to pause live broadcast.  While on Pause, an ad (Domino’s Pizza, eg) pops up on screen.

 

Investigate ethicality and free speech issues of David Wells’ $100,000 fine for venting in his new autobiography.

 

Hand over manufacturer’s phone numbers to head barista to order new Peace buttons.

 

Design new button: Tivo the War.

 

Design poster: Bush as a deer caught in headlights aiming a rifle.

 

Listen to kora. Remember.

 

Make love, not war, this morning.

 

Fire Car Negotiators who guarantee to find the lowest price, who cannot negotiate whether to get new car or keep old one between wife and me.

 

Imitate grandson., looking over shoulder to make sure the person I am trying to outrace is still chasing.

 

Open authentic Cincinnati Chili ladle present from brother

 

First thing I see is daughter wishing me Happy Birthday

 

Make appointment to record Chuck Close Praise Poems at Village Digital.

 

Open fortune cookie from wife. Read it to her: “You Will Die.” When she reads it it says, “Success will find you.”

 

Worry. Feel as bad as ever. Suicide.

 

 

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Awww shucks Annieopolis!

I follow in your deep and luscious footsteps,

So you know as well

the edge of constancy we

hoarders of possibility

feel as Future caves

 constantly

 pinning us

 for two days

 in twinned tower

of paper thought

 I throw love bomb

to you for the perpetration

perpetuale that

would not be

If it were not for

Why just today a letter

from a poet who cannot find

 a single Dial a Poem

 in the US today!

We must ringading!!

See you at Pedro's thing

 on Sunday (rumor

 has it that Miguel may

 drop in to lead off),

And do you think it wise

 to recommend and supply

 xerox for Naropa summer

 rather than require and risk


Yr curious patient,

Bob

 

ps -- The platter

w/ flowers,

did it survive

the great party?


In a message dated 12/30/2003 6:22:30 PM Eastern Standard Time, a.waldman@mindspring.com writes:

HAPPY 2004!!!!

Just want to thank all your folks there for the brilliant OASIS that the
Bowery Poetry Club is - It's really changed the "face" of poetry in this
city &the world - I am so appreciative for the vastness of the vision you
all have -the commitment to a range of poetics poetics & the attentiveness
to the up and coming geniuses -   &for keeping it going. Onward!  Much Love

Anne Waldman

 

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Beach Simplifies Horizon

 

Here warmly framed in gold, the young Cezanne
Would scratch his pen neath the solemn eyes of Zola
and run his letters together cryptomorphically
So that the Rhone would hush and ever so
Sweetly the Rhone would hush as in Zola's eye
A single tear would work its way out and down,
In the center of town, the muffled drum
And a clear blue memory of a man whose pipe
Would not draw but work a puff of smoke
About and around like friendship

 

 

 

I would, that longest window, sit there

And grapple with morning.  With the chair

Appropriately turned on its side, narrow,

Opalescent, triangulated, waiting night's

Fountain and lots of music everywhere

 

 

 

Sometimes I smoke

Sometimes my pants fall down

But it's ok

I wear underpants

I don't smoke in bed

 

 

This, woman, is bread

We eat the stuff

That’s how it happens

 

 

Not a care in the garden
So I'll stay there, grappling

With no care, caressing the tender

Hair of your whiteness, where color

Once was, and pouring water, and I am red

 

 

Touch a moment

That, baby, is so good

And my huge forearm

Big gulps and gulps

and also to turn around

and see you there

 

 

 

Once there was light

We'd sit in it

Maybe a wall

Isn't a bright idea

 

 

 

Let's take a fat shower together

And mix up our hairs

And kiss whatever

And a blind lover

Just make it sweet

 

 

 

Escape from land

Jump in and disappear

This is the life

So cool and long

 

 

 

100 years of a rose

And my beach simplifies the horizon

Please get dressed in a relaxed manner

While I watch and watch and watch

 

 

The sun of melody

I mean the sun's melody

Humming wind

All right, I'll lift my arm

 

 

Solid and airy, and clumsy Beauty

Put an arm up if you are

Well whatever you are doing you

Can always put your arm up

Or maybe just put your arm up

Maybe with a lot of blue water

You'll lift something and it will be

You, your arm and you, blue too

 

 

We'll invite over just scads of people

If it's ok with you and eat fruit,
     all different kinds

Maybe you'll take your clothes off

Maybe Paul will draw you with

     that magic brush of his

We could probably stay like that

     probably forever

 

 

What are you thinking about

I am thinking about screaming

That makes me laugh and your smile

And life's relay scream a song

 

 

 

 

 

 

It sounds funny

To get in bed

Like hand me a knife

I'll cut a hole in the

Puffy feather mattress

And we can crawl in there

 

 

 

Beds, please don't

Sleep on them

They are our friends

 

This tree is now the sun
And all the bathers are wearing

Glasses. Well, are they

     sunglasses?

Ask for yourself.  They

Will answer, and that will

Be it for you you you

 

This is not paradise, it is

Marvelous, about 5 km outside

Paradise.  I was born and raised

In this tent and yesterday it fell

Down.  I don't care.  Let it rain.

I'll eat your hair without a

Care and press my trousers but

Where did I leave my trousers?

 

 

 

Paul, hurry!  The Bathers are dancing

They're balling the hillside and a

Barking shadow warns them if you're

Not careful.  They are practicing

Safe sex and look like they'll graduate

With honors.  That's the story, but

Where is the painting? Paul, come back,

You have forgotten the easel, the paints,

The pants, the....

 

 

I'll just sit down here and rest

While you do the rest

 

 

For goodness sake

Don't you think

You've carried that water jug

Far enough

To the moon and back

And to the moon

 

 

 

 

Which way

This way

Or that way

Always

 

 

That says it

That says it all

Except no fair

Saying it

 

 

A jungle of white towels

On brightest July mid-morning

I'm running into irony

But you keep pulling me back

Little by little

 

 

Caught in the polka of the soul

I was a brat with a mission

Listen to me, for I'll say it but once

And now, having forgot what it was,

Come back, genuine idea of it,

I cannot run anymore

 

 

Maybe it's time we got wet

Only our reflections

The rest is sex and sun

And somebody explaining it to you

     with a tongue

 

 

Hey you

Yeah

You look great

You too

Totally great in front of me

 

 

 

What were we saying

I forget but maybe

We can conjure up a telephone

Then the telephone would remember

That is what they are for

 

 

 

Who moved that bridge to there

No, they built it

And it was always there

Go back to sleep

 

 

 

The only thing

You can wear

Is your tattoo

 

 

What are we doing now

What were we ever doing

We are being flowers, tulips

And we are looking at you

With that "join us" look as

We join too, everything, that

Is what we are doing, or

Did, joining up and in and becoming

Everything, everything is what we are

 

 

I'm not sure, or,

No longer am I sure

But yes it seems a boat

So after that

After that I don't

 

 

 

Maybe the Sun

Again, maybe not

Or who is over there

I'm surprised it's you

You used to but it's ok

You did, I remember the

Time, but then time joined up

Sweet and swift, this silence

 

 

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Black Herman

     ----For Billy Bang

 

 

Some stories can’t wait to be told

Some stories just don’t want to be told

Let me tell you one of those

Dark silhouette cuts like a rusty cat food can

Deep into the still bop of night

Takes a bloody finger to write a story like this

 

Let me lay upon you the tale of a hermit, a Black Hermit name of Black Herman

Black Herman walks the earth backwards cause your time and his time see,

they don’t go in the same direction. Small man, dresses dapper,

a gold-tipped multifunctional cane

 

In the Land of Jazz he’s a well-known stream of consciousness,

a cat to stay away from except when he’s right there with you you can’t seem to get away

 

And when the forces catch up with him, he’s always somewhere else

Talkin Black Herman Can you hear him walkin

 

How tight can you be held before the air cage locks your heart away? Black Herman

How many fingers to hold you off the balcony on the 39th floor at Pedro’s, don’t worry. Black Herman.

How many little incidents petty thefts crazy drug deals goin bad right now lost saxophones forgotten appointments a siren in the distance the originating crackling cackle of the back of the neck of Black Herman. Where’d he go?

 

So the story goes something like this.

 

Round midnight, Night of the Time Change, Spring forward fall back, final set of the Billy Bang Quartet. A laugh disrupts the mood of blue, Billy feels a sweat bead slowly go the eye corner neck routine Oh man tomorrow’s the other day, Maine so close he can taste the salt wave…

 

That’s the way it is it is and it almost isn’t so sly only one eye to see and be seen with,  the limping entrance of the downish lowish digmeister, the King of Quick Exit, the rattler  – Black Herman, dark silhouette.

 

Billy’s breathing heavy now, there’s no beat left, the band’s gone & disappeared on him! It’s like the music makes the world, swirl world limbo twirl crossroads of scritch and scratch

 

Not me baby no – where’d the Love go, Billy? That’s what he says ….

 

Mr Black Herman, Mr Black Herman’s back and backing back, what you care about that, Bang is just fiddling around, going frontwards backwards

Don’t need you to make a sound, Black Herman’s around, that big breath you hear,

It’s just your own, that figure disappear

 

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Chinese Poems  

  (                   )

 

Go ahead

Open the door

Hello white water

Hello there bridge

Hello figure

On the other

Side of the bridge

Saying hello

Just myself

 

 

 

 

 

                       Who Knows

 

Who cares

Why bother

How come

What possible difference

Could it make

 

 

 

 

 

                                The Garage

 

I fix the spot

Every time

I put my foot down

When I lift it

I leave it

I return

To fix it

Thank you

Very much


 

              Me

                                  (after Po Chu-I)

 

Ho! Don't shave Santa!

Happy wind in the beard, moving sidewalk, whoops!

100 years just went past --

Well, if that's vague, it's because my head's

Turned and I am a monk in a bunk, dying thin.

Just some old guy singing and walking around.

 

 

 

 

 

                                 Who Are You?

 

Empty -- just my feet

but then voices

and no feet

who am I hiding from

they will see me

I will find out

right now it's moss and leaves forever

soon steel and concrete

this is modern time

very free in my blind

the sun reaches into the woods

this is the sun pocket

I am falling asleep

they will see my feet

but hunched I can't see them

only a bird, that leaf and now

a squirrel -- who am I?

I am a squirrel


 

                             Sad Song

You can cry now

This is a sad song

Out the window

Over the miles

Look, it's your hometown!

This look is your return

Even though nobody's home.

Some return. Some river

With no boat.

Don't tell me about it.

Don't tell anyone.

 

 

 

 

 

Sailing Back Capital

              (after Chan Fang-sheng)

 

You've got a million feet

Why do you stand on your head?

Your pockets still fall down

My salary plunks to the ground.

Why is my head white sand?

New poems all of a sudden.

                  

 

 

 

 

     The Return

 

I am standing in the doorway.

I have put my suitcase down.

You are staring at me strangely

Because I am a high school manikin

And you are my steady dresser.
              Help

 

Here -- you drink, I'll write.

The sun's going down.  We won't be

     needing it anymore,

So let's tape these blossoms back on this tree.

The branches waving their naked arms, "Help! Help!"

Hey!

Hold the ladder steady, you!

"Help! Help!"

 

 

 

 

 

 

     After Ch'in Kuan

 

Look at that!

Too bad.

 

I love strong grass up here

And the trees down there.

 

I cannot bear the churring of the night-jar.

Throw your gum away.

 

Rain has struck the pear blossom!

 

Out of work?

Lock the door.

 

 

 

 

 

          So Far Away

 

It is dawn and the bouffant is dragging.

Paint, paint that eye.  It is history

That makes you paint them so far away.

So sad.  So natural to feel that sadness.

The little smile in the little frown.


 

Previously Saving

 

You no think me

You no love me

This old custom

Break heart

Folk custom

Way-things-used-to-be

Previously saving each other

We think go ho ho

So difficult, loyalty

Like white heads

Disappearing in white water

 

 

 

 

 

 

     He Refuses to Enter the Marketplace Even to Buy Prestige

 

Putt putt little cafique

She puts her hands on your shoulders

And pushes herself up to dive from them

Pushing you down where you see

The clearest you ever saw


 

     Dreaming

 

All day to watch this petal fall

     Two to one it doesn't

          It doesn't

 

Secretly the evening steals

     Spring and the cow

 

I thought the curtains would answer

     I thought I'd get the money

          And buy the whole garden

 

Singing in the garden

          As the petal deliriously falls

     And settles on your breast

          Where your breast would be

 

I will not wake up

     No matter what

          To see how it ends


 

 

              Rain

                   for Danny O'Neil

How I love

To stand

In the driving rain

Blowing my horn

At the entrance

To the Holland Tunnel

 

 

   Saying Goodbye

 

Now you're giving wine to the horse!

Why did I ever ask you for directions?

You ask me why I asked you?

Who's the guide around here anyway?

Surely we're not lost.

Are we lost?

We're lost.

Let us never go back

May we never be found.

 

 

 

 

 

         Is

 

What is is time

What the arrow points to

The hole in the arrow

To fill the belly time

The fork to the mouth

It is dinner time

It is time to eat

It is time to eat time


 

Here's an Example

 

 

 

We could sail away

We could fall through
     The ventilator slats in the floor

Every word is important

You are a poet

Talking to a painting, learning all
Over again how a white street

Can lead night around the side

Where love is the horizon

Where the cup has two handles

 

 

 

 

 

What It Is

 

More than you know me there is

     Something in my eye. Is it

A volcano? I mean window. I mean,

Excuse me, are you talking to me?

I brought you something, but you

Came through it so at least everything

Will be different, starting immediately.

Difficulty is your daughter, too, she adds.

Vast apples! How sorry the sorry image,

Romanticism cubed. That is the question:

Forget it! Now, slowly remove propeller

From tuba, gently stretching umbilical

Accordion to full spectrum Ä that's it.

Your move. Your witness. Yours truly.


 

Long Hoe, Long Hoe with Your Raw Wooden Handle

 

All the way to the groundline

And then up comes the shoot

Except now with yam eyes in my pocket

And the snow around you, Long Hoe

I must sit and think of my family hunger

And will return either emptyhanded

Or offering the seeds that would harvest fill

And this is the second time I have sung this

 

 

 

 

 

                   Up All Night

 

And it's still night

But there's a bird

Flying into it

Taking its share

 

All I do is sit here

And write poems

 

 

 

 


 

Do City Morning

 

Awake watermelon my eyes

Door to door.  The sun is investigating.

We don't mind, we are coffee.

Wires spread, pinching blue so blue.

Clocks growl, radios sputter.

Do people wearing no faces yet

Sigh magic n a crease n a jog

Footwork my life as an individual

By King of the Bees a narrative

Enclosing this city sea of air

God's dirigibles' war cries & sensitives

These headlines across morning's table

To the dead giveaway of your hands.

 

 

 

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The Cruellest Poem

 

Wait until 12:01am on April 1,

then start reading this poem.

 

Read it over

& over & over & over

until the month

      is over.
 

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Etruscan Poem

You are alive.

 

And should hear the Truth

About yourself - I am a liar

Named the Sun - I am King of the Sun

And you are safe with me.

 

Life is complicated but sacred.

Nothing is Natural - just say

Goodby to the beautiful sky.

Look behind it and use the Bones.

For toothpicks. Inevitable

Errors lose all meaning.

 

Just to walk through the goats

To the gates! Mountains. Crickets.

Blue copper. A horse between

The pink mountains and...

Hold it! Behold the great

Rocks where the land howls!

 

There is nothing but green. Tunnels

Pierce the stones' hearts, small villages

Penetrate your desire. The wind

Makes your kind of scream. Listen.

This place will suit.

It has no foundation.

 

The Earth has a voice:

You can listen to cracked mud,

Still holding a flag. Surprise.

The world is bigger than your opinion.

Rome, a kiss on the brown horizon.

O poor desperate people, Love me!

For the walls of Rome have fallen,

The faces have been filled in, all Africa

Has been sacked to reveal pinnacles of fear

In your piazzas. Send gentle reports to the tombs.

 

Look at what the hillside reveals.

Gone are the quests, lawns and laws.

Now we will scream forever. St. Ivo's screws

Up a new sky. God's errors melt. What suspicion

Causes me to banish you? Only my

Daughters shall speak. Standing before

The gate late at night -

 

Dear Muse, bring me a party.

It is late, I am human, I am

Crying like children for their future.

What proverbs will succor now? Bring

Me more news, wicked and noisy. Cross

Black hopes with green sorrow.

I am Gold. Still the Sun's turning.

 

I'm a Boat. Take me.

Out of focus, a slender tear,

The final robe. Quick legs

To dust death. Come.

It is time for sleep.

 

 

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Everything

 

In the back room of the Poets Club

The poets are crying for fear

Their good works shall go unnoticed

 

It’s a kind of a poem, this life

Filled with windows but always indoors

 

I’d give anything to have everything the one

Poet remarks, Kleenex affixed to the broadside

I’d give it back on account of everything

 

Is everything responds the chorus, blasting

The dust from the intake vent (or “nose”)

Of the tin greenroom and catapulting

 

The whole scene (or “everything”) into Heaven

Where you sit in a movie

The one where it’s the mountaintops and snow and wisps wind

 

Round the crags and buttresses saying wined not

Wind because it is more poetical: and over there

Looking the other way is my mother. I try

 

To get her attention but cannot so busily staring into the nonhorizon

Is she, which I do not due to the therapy and all the pills I take

 

As meaning she is ignoring me. Her son. While meanwhile sprites

And devils are pouring Bosch out of the blue hole that

 

Leads from the VIP Room to Heaven. I can pour you a pint of gold

In the cold cold cold. The sadness that is always and is everything.

 

 

 

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Kaira Peace

          -- as sung by Papa Susso to Bob Holman

 

Kaira is a word

It is the word for Peace

Kaira means Peace I think you can hear that

Kaira Oh how Papa Susso loves that word Kaira

Papa Susso, the Internet griot with a BA degree

It is such pleasure to sing Kaira up and down kora strings

Listen to Kaira, that pleases Peace, Please Peace Now

Slavery is over, that’s what peace means

1945, West Africa, you know the World War

Was happening – Kaira – but in West Africa,

In Senegambia, 1945 was the year slavery was abolished

No more slaves means peace – Kaira!

Now it so happened that a few years later

There was a rich man in Guinea

Name of Kaira-ba Toure, his name

Was Peace and he loved Peace so it was all together

And there was a great great great balafon player, I’m talking

Teneng Sory Diabate, who saw this and rededicated Kaira

To this patron of the arts and this patron of Peace, Kaira, Kaira-ba

 

Now listen here is Kaira

 

Slavery abolished but people still fight for power, Kaira

The jeli sing Kaira and people who come from the slave families,

Well, they still call themselves slaves, they walk around

Only now they follow no one. They are looking for work like everyone else.

And the power struggles you could say they go on to this day

This New Year Day let’s know this word Kaira

It’s a word for Peace, it pleases peace, Please Peace Now

With slaves in Mauritania and Sudan -- Kaira

With political prisoners in US and Eritrea -- Kaira

With people dying in Iraq even though the war is not a war -- Kaira

The kora plays the contradictions and plays for Kaira, for Peace

That is Kaira, the word for Peace

Please Peace Now

Kaira is the word for Peace

 

 

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Knockin’ on Heaven’s Door with Sparrow

 

I gonna scratch noncommercial tattoo

Gonna eat my way to pain

Stir the flour in the roux

Listen to the lowdown from the coxswain

 

Knock knock knockin hear me snore

Knock knock knockin linoleum floor

Knock knock knockin precious ore

Knock knock knockin can I have some more

 

Dick Cheney needs to take a bath

The Remarkable Ambersons are quite plain

Dagummit, now you’ve gone & provoked my poisonous wrath

Bake the president in a quiche lorraine

 

Knock knock knockin who’s there Trojan War

Knock knock knockin Trojan War what no underwear

Knock knock knockin follow the dinosaur

Knock knock knockin we don’t live here anymore

 

Just last night at the Bowery Poetry Club we hatched a plan

Bout how we should open a Poetry Club where poetry could have a home

Then we had an orgy just to release the tension of being a man

And we woke up in a strange place smelled like Stockholm (and you know that ain’t pretty)

 

Knock knock knockin will you please come in

Knock knock knockin there’s no room in the Inn

Knock knock knockin but I’m the real Slim Shady Eminem

Knock knock knockin we were expecting Huckleberry Finn

 

I predict that the world will go to the store

And buy lots of stuff and get buttons reading “Carnivore”

C’mon all together let’s battering ram  on Heaven’s door

Trying to stop the Iraqui War

 

Knock knock knockin in the dresser drawer

Knock knock knockin on a sophomore

Knock knock knockin in the cuspidor

Heretofore the metaphor to die for quoth the matador nevermore

 

Playing the blues on my old sitar

It just don’t matter anymore

Sometomes I wonder where you are

Knock knock knockin on heaven’s door

 

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Listening to Monk Chun’s Lute (after Li Po)

 

Hold up the tablecloth over your face

– peekaboo& goodbye -- Chun plays

Approximately 10,000 valleys worth

On his ridiculously famous lute!  Strum

Strum pine strums define time finally

Bells in Feng Mountains – nine bells

Ring when first frost comes. It’s still

The lute!  How many

Echoes?

Starting over.

Washing the water.

 

 

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Out (The Window)

 

I saw so many things

I wanted all of it mine

I busted the glass

 

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Paris

 

Gray streets glower shine skate fire

Both hands nag gnaw ache desire

 

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POEM

 

 

 "Make more things," snored Bobbyboy in his wet and thunderous bed.
The I-girl was watching because there was enough light to hear by.
 
 And coffee with Splenda, mad cow disease in their pot, an old
 rhubarb stalk for pie
 
 chummy bananas and the howling art. It was dear I-girl's favorite
 part, to translate
 
 synecdoche to the full body: an arm pit?  my venal cavity!
 (I smell; I love)
 
 Powerful as a fluffed! the river rerouted (thanks to a cooperative
 zoning  dominatrix)

 to bring their rafts into conspiratical disoonance
 until they had
 to go to work to make more things
 
 The cogs at the work sang the same old song, this time in unison:
 More things.  Dratty old things; begin again it rings: Make things.

 

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Quick!

 

You may think I’forgot the cloud

But I want to tell your sweet cheatin’heart there’s nothing left between me and that cloud, useta be you sunshine ha I’ll be the sun don’t lie to me

 

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Throw Me On A Scale

 

Toss me overboard, I won’t float, the bag

Of fat and wine will, but I won’t. Eyes sag

 

under the waves, but my smile detonates. But

Whenever Hafiz breaks wind there’s no but but

 

But! Here are the gills and scales, not what

The first violinist flirts with, melody grunts

 

Pleasure breast and up above you holy bipeds

Gotta keep dividing unity into tiny parcels

 

Which are sent overnight to the Future! Gay folk

Are their own children, it’s evolution rose, the pink

 

Downs Syndrome, autism, schizophrenia – these

Are the beloved, and I don’t mind saying Nappy